ur sky is dark

2009-03-26T00:12:00.000-07:00

oh when it rains, i lock myself in my room and blast my speakers and bass. Somehow it felt good.

下雨天

下雨天了怎麼辦我好想你
我不敢打給你我找不到原因
為什麼失眠的聲音變得好熟悉
沈默的場景做你的代替
陪我等雨停

期待讓人越來越沉溺
誰和我一樣等不到他的誰
愛上你我總在學會寂寞的滋味
一個人撐傘一個人擦淚
一個人好累

怎樣的雨怎樣的夜
怎樣的我能讓你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑
才能夠有你的體貼

其實沒有我你分不出那些
差別結局還能多明顯
別說你會難過
別說你想改變
被愛的人不用道歉

期待讓人越來越疲憊
誰和我一樣等不到他的誰
愛上你我總在學會寂寞的滋味
一個人撐傘一個人擦淚
一個人好累

怎樣的雨怎樣的夜
怎樣的我能讓你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑
才能夠有你的體貼

其實沒有我你分不出那些
差別結局還能多明顯
別說你會難過別說你想改變
被愛的人不用道歉

怎樣的雨怎樣的夜
怎樣的我能讓你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑
才能夠有你的體貼

其實沒有我你分不出那些
差別結局還能多明顯
別說你會難過別說你想改變
被愛的人不用道歉

sorry no chinese translation haha

emoemo

2009-01-14T12:41:00.000-08:00

oh yes, its 2009! and i guess it signifies a new start, and a new beginning to everything. i got myself a new target for this semester, to get better grades, be a better person, learn how to use MICROSOFT and stuff , video-editing, dance and singing maybe. think its either too difficult or too impossible for me to achieve. hai, damn depressing but now im taking japanese, i vow not to skip lessons and study hard for it, it seems quite interesting!

HAJIME MASHITE! Boku no namae wa Takeshi desu!
( nice to meet you, my name is takeshi ) should not be wrong unless youtube is teaching me the wrong stuff!

grrr, anyway feeling very old already, 21st birthday coming, and i am damn old lah seriously. someone please help me! i dont want to grow old, and start thinking about working and starting a boring life. guess people are right, enjoy while you are young!
i guess i have not tried a lot of things, i haven gone much on vacation, haven been the nicest person, haven been someone's close friend. im quite surprised at how i have changed, how i lost trust in confiding in people, how i keep everything to myself. omg damn emo now. too secretive, too mysterious, i think i dont know much about myself anymore. omg cant imagine a turning 21 year old types this kinda of shit, but its really quite saddening!

reading through people's blog make me feel worse, it makes me feel like being in love is like damn blissful. doubt i can see that in the near future, and maybe i will just continue leeching on people's blog to feel happy once in a while. blabbering already oh wells, it means goodnight. grrr

2008-12-26T07:21:00.000-08:00

HOHOHO, merry xmas to everyone, to my blog who is don't know how old, and to all the friends i have lost contact in one way or another. OH, MERRY XMAS to my family too! anyway guess i didn't get wasted for this year's christmas! haha, expected to be lying around on some unknown place beside double o or melvin' s bathroom. great, healthy xmas that is. a big thanks to those who gave me xmas presents! XOXO. hahaha, and this christmas is so different, so peaceful and empty i think, was stoning and emo-ing on the bus listening to ipod. Guess i missed out on a lot of stuff and made many awful choices, caused misery to those around me, those who care for me. This christmas, I gave my heart to all my loved ones. And DON'T you dare throw it away!

EMO BOY ON XMAS

post exam activites

2008-12-03T19:53:00.001-08:00

hoho this is the 3rd day after exams already, and i'm aching like shit all over! I think i lost like 4 kg over 3 days and soon i am going to be the most fit person on earth. badminton, handball, basketball floorball whoosh! gonna go sing kbox soon and spend some time with old friends! most of my army friends gonna ORD already, and they will come over to join me in NUS, how exciting and speaking of army friends, we got class gathering for Christmas! how exciting, and i am supposed to come up with some orientation games, should execute accordingly and precisely to ensure an unforgettable christmas! Muahah, thanks ragen for talking to me again like friends, and i appreciate that! hope to meet up with you soon! hahahahha

final paper, end of misery, hopefully

2008-12-01T09:06:00.000-08:00

tml is the last paper, and i am feeling very sleepy haven finished covering the lectures notes and im blogging away, and i feel duper sianz if cap gonna chui again. haha but this sem i feel like i have utilized my readin week quite well already, much better than last sem, hope more effort yields more results :D and i can start exercising tml , clean my room, stop pulling my hair, think about lots of unnecessary stuff, time to pick up guitar, video editing, photo shop, japanese, watch more dramas, getting myself emotionally attached to korean dramas and pretty korean lead actresses! woohoo, sounds exciting and let me get through this nightmare!

I wish that my mum and brother are enjoying their holiday, and im starting my own soon! whee ;D

2008-11-30T04:25:00.000-08:00

haha, omg this will be my first post in 2008! great huh, one year has gone by and lots of stuff has happened. Some are fresh in my mind while the rest kinda faded. Looks like my resolution last year didn't really come true and im still slacking as much as ever. just when im supposed to study for my test now, im slacking and rotting away. BTW i am addicted to this facebook game who has the biggest brains. turns out i got a much bigger brain than vernon santa muggerpoh and many more, however i should always stay modest and not brag about my brainy brains. some jealous people not to mention names, V***** and L*** said that my score didn't reflect my intelligence level, i bet they are jealous. anyway did i not mention that i have santa, vernon and leon as my neighbours, and they are a bunch of crappy but interesting people. gonna enjoy my days i have become more hardworking this sem, but think still gonna die. sometimes i just feel like going back to secondary school days and choosing ngee ann poly mass comm, i really love to make videos and movies! and i think i will always hide in my comfort zone, and not to do anything risky or to choose something i really like, tell one how i truly feel. sometimes i just feel loser-ish and yeap, it has always been this way. grrr. good luck to andee for his last paper on tues!

xoxo,
emokid

2007-09-26T14:30:00.000-07:00

oops, i guess it has been a while since i updated. yeap, i guess by now noone shd be visiting here and i guess i can have this blog to myself now. mwahha. sheares hall is really happening and i guess as the days go, i am mixing around with some usual idiots and yeap, i have been mixing around. just that i dont mix around with some seniors or even know their name. oops again for not making the effort to socialise. sheares hall has just ended buaya week and yes, we do see some potential couples and my buaya week mega project has flopped once again. budget cant win the race after all. mauahha. i have tried my best cause i have to study for my test. hope i dont screw that one up. playing mahjong and sleeping in the morning has become a norm and yes it has to stop. and yes, my partner sue has won miss beautiful skin. 3 cheers (:

sad

2007-08-02T08:27:00.000-07:00

sometimes it is really sad to see all these happening. dont really know which side to help. one side is wrong but the other side is too extreme. i guess sometimes we really should not take things so seriously. and i think im the only one who is always not taking things seriously. but come to think about it now, i feel that im really like fortunate. Im not overly aggressive or overly wrong most of the time. And i am really working hard,dont ask me what. I will make sure things will go right for me this time. yeap, NUS is really fun and for now, let me enjoy my university hall life (:

2007-07-08T11:04:00.000-07:00

i guess im deserting this blog after all. need to blog some of the time. anyway i think i roughly get what kind of person im again. this time, i discovered a lot of negative points about my character and im so going to blog this down so that i will start changing for the better yeap, and i think if this carries on, i willnt find true and sincere frens anymore, yup so 3 cheers for the changing andy. anyway sports camp has been fun, kent ridge and sheares and biz camp too. everything has been wonderful. started to become more sociable and making lots of new friends. whether they are just acquaintance, i cant really tell. but i have to say its really fun and entertaining and comfortable to mix with people who are once strangers. guess thats the magic of communication. yeap, i will going nus since ntu rejected me twice. School of design that is, i hope got lots of hot guys. Im looking forward to that ( not that im gay ) hahaa. back to the point, yup. tonight is an emo night ,and i am quite sorry for letting things turn out this way. Sorry once again for being a bastard. After all, i aint confident enough.

2007-06-16T21:20:00.000-07:00

Dear blog,its been a long time since i visited you and just wanna tell you that alot has happened. good ones and bad ones. and i have to say that im not doing too well ,im like kinda changed and yup, i decided to ditch you already. sad to say, but i will start to miss you badly. and im turning 20, while you are turning 3. time passes so fast. take care (:

2007-05-02T08:24:00.000-07:00

i feel like a bloated pig ready for roasting now. OMG DAMN FULL ! HAHAHHAHAHAH, i have about 1k in my bank now, call me MR RICH KID! HHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH (: sorry im too high

2007-04-29T10:09:00.000-07:00

whats with the world or is it just me?
dont bother talking to me,im officially labelled " screwed up " for the week. I have been bad tempered, insensitive to others and many more. i feel like a complete loser for this week. I am going to change and to those i feel that i offended, big sorry. I will cheer up and i will rebuild my lively and cheerful image. whats more,can all these come to an end. well, call me bastard hong. Im one for this week.

2007-04-26T10:14:00.000-07:00

ehhh guys! 200 pounds beauty is not bad! i mean its like a not bad romance + comedy drama since HITCH! go watch go watch. by the way, the scriptwriter is really quite goodddddd, he made me TEAR. and the girls really pretty,guess im paying a lot of attention to the superficial level. BUT the girl really looks innocent and angellic. haha. sometimes i wish i was braver to do the things i really loved, maybe i could write scripts that are as good as this movie. arghhh. still feeling weak in the mind. i need a lock up to train up on my mentality ):

2007-04-23T10:04:00.000-07:00

okay,im in a " FUCK OFF,BACK OFF EVERYONE " mood now,and i just cant get to sleep.Dunno why i became so insensitive and so fucking selfish. I bet i hurt alot of people who care for me out there. sorry again,im really insensitive and im in a really foul mood. im sorry okay, there is just a lot of stuff happening and really little time for me to adjust my mood. i just suck okay. im not ready for another blow now. i just wish i could wake up from this damn dream now. FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK and i hope now i can get to sleep

2007-04-23T03:17:00.000-07:00

you always see this happening in dramas,people telling you to cherish your life and you live just once,and not let others affect your life.And,lastly be happy.Because noone is capable of doing that for you 24/7,but rather you can make it happen with your own powers. Yes,life is unpredictable and hell to those who dont cherish their lives,or people around them. Suddenly,everyday becomes frightening and all i wish now is that i wake up from this dream.

Noone falls in this journey.

2007-04-19T09:12:00.000-07:00

Hugs or kisses?

I suppose for guys, kisses work better. At least, it did for me. Somehow i start to think otherwise. For a moment, maybe hugs are more comfortable and it certainly calms one almost immediately. I guess in life, we tend to seek for something plain and simple sometimes. In this case referred to the hugs. Kisses are like the many climax that we come by each time in life. Excessive seems to take away the magic kisses do. For now, hugs seem to be much friendly.

2007-04-16T19:12:00.000-07:00

haha,i think i seriously feel like an emo kid now. what the hell,feeling so emo even in the morning,and i cant even get HIGH now! NEVER MIND I SHOULD TRY! arghhh.. i think i have been too emo these days and i think i know what the reason is ( which is a good thing ) at least now i start to understand myself a bit more. ALRIGHT! let me share more about some impactful events that happened along the way.
1. I think i have become cuter ( okay, JOKING LAH )

Joined some dj competition,and i could say that i really admired my efforts in trying to become a braver person. I remembered the judges asked me why i wanted to become a dj, and i replied them i wanted to become a braver person and wanted to know how my life will turn out to be if i took up this challenge ( these words did not come out that smooth )

Now,i thought of what to say completely already. I think i will add on the part about leaving the stage with a smile regardless the outcome. And also tell the other contestants there is nothing scary about standing up there ( stage ) ; it becomes scary only when your determination to acheieve your dream becomes uncertain.

yet,i still dont know what im heading towards. Where does my future lie? I guess im just following the norm and im going to be an ordinary person afterall. But am i one of these people out there. I dont think so because i feel that inside me,i am TEENAGE MUTANT NINJA TURTLE. YAY!

sorry about the last part, super no link ._.

2007-04-15T10:02:00.000-07:00

To-do list

1. I cant be emo
2. I cant be myself
3. I cant be true
4. I cant be everything i wanted
5. I can always hide
6. I can always run
7. I can always keep my regrets to myself
8. Lastly, i guess i can accompolish this To-do list.

better

2007-04-14T10:49:00.000-07:00

My friend, A is a coward. He is never serious. But he is funny at times,and i really enjoy his company. But when it comes to relationships,i think he has always kept himself out of reach. I think he doesnt know what he wants and where he is going to find it. He has hidden well.

I think i feel like an A today ):

holding back

2007-04-13T09:50:00.000-07:00

i ever wondered if anyone will be honest in their blogs,for me i guess i willnt be exactly honest.but i guess i will share a bit more and hide the rest. it sucks to hold back feelings and when my fren once told me that, i told her thats crap. i told her if you dont want something to happen, you can make that happen by taking a strong stand and put an end to it. Now,im facing something similar,and i realised as much as i want to put this behind me,there 's something holding me back. Is it due to the lack of faith i have for myself or for this,or because i know im not good enough for this? This gets me thinking and emo. omg,im emo king,NEMO!

If you are reading,please laugh at the futile attempt at creating a joke.

2007-04-04T05:09:00.000-07:00

" joy to the world the andeeeee has come ... "
okay as expected,an ultra disguisting intro paragraph to welcome me back once again! ahha,my internet connection at home is done! done as in it is OKAY already! so you guys will see me blogging more frequently ( just joking ) im damn lazy nowadays, damn tired after coming back from work and i think i really missed out on a lot of people especially my classmates! and currently i like this nick that i somehow thought of
" love travels further than bluetooth "

sit back and enjoy the nick,you are welcomed to read deep into its meaning (:

._.

2007-03-24T22:29:00.000-07:00

okay sorry for the late updates,but how come my tagboard infested with porno stuff ,and which idiot will that be. i tink is phang. hahah,and speaking of phang,i haven seen him in years.Maybe one day ask you out for shopping.and im currently jobless till 2nd april and seriously working is quite fun if you have fun loving colleagues, quite sad cox all my male colleagues going army soon,no more nudging on msn and fun.HAI!btw i feel that i have been influenced badly by CLUBBING. help!and i guessed i spent a lot too,and its a habit thats getting out of hand. SO PLEASE STOP JIO-ING ME TO CLUB. lol,but seen quite a few aj ppl .Long time since i saw them,orh and btw, to update all bloggers out there,BUSH has cut his HAIR. finally,now being recognized as MINI-BUSH. and he was with ****! HAHHA.and it seems that im getting more emo during this period,and who knows why. and that idiot stop tagging pornsite on my blog! send me the webbie instead. thanks for co-operation Xp

working

2007-03-09T00:59:00.000-08:00

haha,im such pathetic loser that i had to access my blog from my working office. HOW LOSER CAN I GET. args. internet connection has been down lately so i didnt blog in class blog, only see 2 frequent bloggers yickloong and shui shui.forever the two of them. sad i cant join you all or else we can be the FANTASTIC three. maybe ask phang join in and we become the FANTASTIC four! ._. haha,i found my work okay and now to inform you guys out there hhow exciting it is to work! i call people everyday! sounds really interesting right i guess so, i called some guy to ask him buy printer and he passed away. how unlucky / lucky can that go! can buy toto le. anyway i play black jack one day i got TRIPLE 7! but i only bet 20cents , so i won like $ 1.40 ! CHEERS ! anyway lots of things have happened so far. i got AAB for A levels ! damn happy lah its really FRIGGING TYCO ! but failing gp was DAMN TYCO also lah! though i had the feeling i will do badly for gp, but WHY fail me. cannot spit in MRS CHNG's face. her curse damn "CURSED" ahha. wannna go nus or nntu for the same reason, i wannt HOSTEL LIFE ! mauahah. and i thinking of making a portfolio which consists of 3 min movie, i tot of the story line and i just need a guy and a girl to kiss, but where am i gonna find them! never mind, interview for the role starts tml at my house at 3, interested give me call at 63526019 ! hahahaa. btw my height still 174cm. sians. MEL IM STILL TALLER THAN YOU ! MUAHAH

2007-03-03T16:16:00.000-08:00

andie tries to be EMO.

hahahahahaha but he is really THE DARK HORSE !
AAB !

woohoo

2006-11-28T06:49:00.000-08:00

whoops, today is monday! ahah. duno how many days after Alevels alredy,and today is the first time the basketballers are going to sentosa for an outing! woohoo. as usual, the last to reach harbourfront mrt PAYS for breakfast.stupid terence deng with mr KUO and lan tried to trick us hurh.cowli tricked sam.sam damn dumb.LOL. ah fu ewan cowli sam terence tsuiwei lan me and junjie! it was damn fun lah, eugene nearly drowned in the sea. HAHA. then we played water polo, all the bastards trying hard to throw the ball at some hot babes at the other end of the sea,but yup none succeeded. damn stupid. we played touch rugby on the shoreline.hee. one on one against ewan and i got thrashed completely. really refreshing game. A surprise - SIANG LOONG! haha. his class came and challenge our class volleyball and got whacked. he promised to share his girlfren with us. LOL. seoul garden dinner was worst lah. ah fu trying very hard to whip up his own dessert and what happens? he ended up not drinking a single bit cox it was too sweet.LOL. didnt know things can be so fun with guys! and of courrse there will be more basketball outings! WHOOPS. happified

hee

2006-11-23T10:24:00.000-08:00

alot of stuff happened after As, maybe my life after As is jsut all about mahjonging and losing money, but someting that really made up parts of my memory! AMK library, my jeremy and ( yinhai excluded ) and some bush. studying with u guys was really fun, hope can do well too (: i like e eyecandies in amk too, but too bad no more chance le.and whats more, i can start exercising and get slimmer. i tink i hit 70 kg alredy. and im not hitting 180cm yet. sians. my 187cm dream. gone. shattered. lol. and i just worked today nearly died, but now im a more experienced person, i worked for a ship company. omg darren 's father taught me lots of stuff! nex i want to go job hopping i want to see more tings i haven experienced. im trying for someting now and i reli hope i can get thru! During A levels,all that on my mind was script writing, and i was super excited for As to end so that i can write my new story but after As ended, i feel super slack lah! noting to do everyday, but im glad im so free now, dun need activate brain cells. orh yar, i tink im getting pessimistic during rainy weathers. especially listening to some pessimistic songs. im emotional. HAHAA

haha

2006-11-19T09:30:00.000-08:00

okay this is gonna be my first entry since A levels. didnt update for like 1 mth, okay i didnt know i got so carried away by my preparation of Alevels. or shd i say too much slacking at the cybercafes. but one ting is for sure, this blog is gonna be alive soon! im damn tired today so there, im ending off with a lovely kiss for all of you out there! (:

yay

2006-10-14T08:27:00.000-07:00

hmmm,after yesterday,i went home to take a rest.i slept till 11,and i realised i had a good sleep.hmm,looks like everythings come to an end.we attempted to solve all the problems,but yar,we didnt.but im glad some will within our control.i hope from now on,huiling and zhiyan are good frens still,though we said that once bitten,twice shy.but since both of you shook hands,must keep to the promise that you all must start interacting more with one another,i will go attack huiling on someday lah.its true,WHY wait for ppl to approach u,lets take the initiative GUYS!( lets work out a plan to freak huiling off)-grins-hee.orh yar,anyway chenyin and junrong.everythings sorted out and placed infront of you,the rest are up to both of you.actually as a fren,i wanna advise chenyin to forgive and forget,though she told us she isnt that type of ppl who can forget grudges.but im sure life will be only wonderful if you learn to forgive and forget.duno why,i just cant find reasons to hate someone for a long time,even if someone hurt me badly.maybe chenyin has e courage of "gan ai gan heng" and i dont.duno lah,maybe i prefer getting bullied.MUAHAH.dun care le.you all good luck!but chenyin dun gang up wf huimin to murder junrong.haha! abt hoeseng's matter,hmmm,we are at loss.but just hope things and time will help simmer tings down,meanwhile hoeseng stay happy,as well as the rest of us,stay cheerful.actually wanted to comment on each and every clasmate like zikai,but i tink it will be damn damn long.haha. but i tink i should,what if my memories prank on me and decided to elope with my youth?so here i go, BEWARE for the confessions from andy ! yay

courage

2006-10-09T07:39:00.000-07:00

" your "fren" pranks on you like that,and you dun feel retailiating? he insults you and stuff, you dun feel anyting hurh "

" i was angry at first, but somehow the anger in me just died out.and i didnt tink of revenging, all i hoped was they come over and apologise "

" fuck man, you are a fucking coward "

" maybe i was just afraid that losing my "fren" and that im really feeble "

" it just comes across my mind that i have indeed lost the slightest courage to do anyting "

backstab

2006-09-27T08:28:00.000-07:00

could someone tell me that noone is perfect? please, someone reassure me? i duno how im feeling now, just feeling a bit lost and a bit out of place and awkward at times. started reflecting on the wrongs i have done so far, couldnt tink of any during primary school , maybe some crimes include pulling my female classmates' hair and stuff. nothing much, secondary school nearly stole my good fren's girlfren. haiya. lucky everything went back into place, but somehow my good fren and i got distant. i guess we can no longer be the good frens anymore. omg. how come i so brave and truthful suddenly . spurt everything out. haiya. more or less not bothered alredy since As coming and everyone s gonna part again.noone will hear abt me anymore. and yar, in jc now. what did i do? so much for the flirting, kinda of. but that doesnt affect me that much. well, another ting troubling and worrying me more, backstabbed my good fren. i didnt know it will turn this bad,and i tried everything i can do just to salvage it. but i guess its impossible to make a difference now, maybe i shall lay down and just let go of it, anyway we gonna part again after As, why bother abt this while As is just round the corner? but something in me keeps telling me this meant a lot to me, yet i cant do much abt it.haiya. im at fault lah. i admit,i admit, i admit. im really sorry, but can i have a chance? indeed noone is perfect, but again i learnt that chances and forgiveness are not always complimentary gifts after one makes his mistakes. i dun tink i will have the chance to salvage the situation now. looking back at these stupid mistakes that i make at each point of my life makes me feel like a bastard, and made me wonder if i have matured throughout these years? how many more mistakes more will i have to make before i finally become a perfect person? so can someone reassure me that nooone is perfect and everyone makes mistakes? its guilt all these while.

hoho

2006-09-13T05:45:00.000-07:00

The first battle has ended. finally ended. but nightmare is reviving in a few days time, today should be the day for resting my mind since i have no paper tml - MOCKS AT ALL MY CLASSMATES - haha, simply an enjoyment to drop physics,no regrets. lucky i didnt drop econs,cox i just love it so much ( except for the case study ) and let me tell you how the terrible week went. first as usual, i think im gonna fail my gp paper because i wrote out of point.i tink totally out of point, but i blurt in a lot of rubbish. like how belize has the largest coral reef in the northern hemisphere and how smog engulffed the Mexico city. econs paper 3 was quite alrite,did all the 3 questions which i studied on. and it wasnt that bad ,and chem. " HOW TO NOT GET AN A FOR CHEM " ( try to imply the difficulty of the chem paper ) and make sure you read the sarcasm in between the line. and last math paper 1, WHY SO DIFFICULT LAH ! its a bad week , with a low confidence level of 5 %, with this, im sure how well i wil do for my stats paper 2 ):

jay

2006-09-08T10:40:00.000-07:00

haiya, past few days have been slacking as usual. alright, revised role of government till part 3 in 3 days. excellent speed.haiya. super guility now,and i realised i haven been doing much. sleeping and dota-ing the entire day. can someone knock some sense out of me? am i overly-confident or what? HELP HELP HELP. recently visited youtube for old mv of jay and i realised that indeed the song sounds much nicer with the whole package. i love mv because there is always a different story to a song, and it just entertains me! (: anyway im in a bad mood, and till i study enough, mood is in nowhere near GOOD. my favourite song a while ago-

Hey Mr. Curiosity
Is it true what they've been saying about you
Well are you killing me
You took care of the cat already
And for those who think it's heavy
Is it the truth
Or is it only gossip
Call it mystery or anything
Oh just as long as you call me
I sent the message on did you get it when I left it
Said well this catastrophic event
It wasn't meant to mean no harm
But to think there's nothing wrong is a problem, oh

I'm looking for love this time
Sounding hopeful but it's making me cry
(Trying not to ask why)
This love is a mystery
Mr. Curious...

Come back to me
I'm a mr. waiting on and never patient can't you see
That I'm the same the way you left me, left me
In a hurry to spell check me
And I'm underlined already in envy green
And then to red
And I've forgotten what you've said
Will you stop working for the dead and return

A mr. curious well I need some inspiration
It's my birthday and I cannot find no cause for celebration
The scenario is grave but I'll be braver when you save me
From this situation laden with hearsay, oh

I'm looking for love this time
Sounding hopeful but it's making me cry
(Trying not to ask why)
This love is a mystery
Mr. Curiosity
Hey mr. please
Do come and find me, oh
Oh, come on oh, yea yea

I'm looking for love this time
Sounding hopeful but it's making me cry
(Trying not to ask why)
Cause love is a mystery
Mr. curiosity
Hey mr. please
Do come and find me

Love is blinding when your timing's never right
Oh but who am I to beg for difference
Finding love in a distant instant
But I don't mind
Oh love at least I tried, well I tried...

jason mraz- MR. curiosity-the chorus is really nice (:

mel

2006-09-06T07:11:00.000-07:00

well,i saw this super hot netballer in school that day. when she passed me,she gave me a grin,or shd i say a smile,a smile that melted my heart instantly. her smile was that infectious and somehow she brightened my day. come to think abt it, we are together for almost a year. she has been always there for me. during rainy days,we shared the same umbrella. during hot weather,she held the umbrella for me to ensure i wasnt burnt anymore. we went genting and there, we shared our happiest times together, we dated under the roller coaster, and stormed into the ghost house with hands together. omg. i tink im writing a lot of bullshit,HAHA. anyway this entry is especially for melissa fu xun ru. anyway one thing true abt this entry is that i reli reli reli find her name NICE. cya XUN RU (:

happy hugger

2006-09-05T07:11:00.000-07:00

my mum told me i am born to make people happy,
and when they hug me,
they will feel happy.

now that you know this secret of mine,
will you have the courage to hug me?
or shall i say,
do u have the courage to try it out?

adapted from somewhere. and i find it really interesting.

smallville

2006-09-04T05:41:00.000-07:00

haa, i tink im improving day by day,im less addicted to the computer now, i ddint blog yesterday! -pat on the back- wells, went studying at bishan cc today,and the place ( the coffee-shop ) was flooded with ajcians. yups, tried very hard to finish up some ten year series,and i tink i managed to complete some. yup, was watching smallville yesterday and came across one special episode of a boy who aged at an astonishing speed, within three days he aged and died. it set me thinking abt how im gonna react if my fren was ageing so rapidly and in the blink of an eye, he passes away in front of me. it sounds super spooky. hmm, also i cant imagine how my feelings will be to see somone so close to me pass away just like that? what if one day i age that extremely fast? well, im still tinking what i wanna complete b4 my life ends. maybe visit the disneyland or sutmthing, okay, im stupid. hmm, how abt burning the whole office down and save everyone from prelims? alright, the latter will made me a superhero b4 i die (:

haaa

2006-09-02T04:45:00.000-07:00

fcuk man,promised to really study today and looks like mission failed miserably today again, only revised ppart 1 of role of government. wtf. super slack, then watched some hong kong movie with brother on the dvd. its super retarded but im glad to say that its the first hong kong movie that left me a great impression since a long time. its some gay movie lah. i mean not really gay. its abt this retard ( i mean he is really retarded ) and he gets involved with this pimp. and somehow the pimp cons this retard into selling his body to woman. for some, you might be " yucking " right now, but in this movie, i saw sumthing through. that is, a retard could make a true fren, and why is it that even ordinary ppl like us cannot be true frens, i heard abt people stabbing one another from behind, betrayal and stuff. that makes life ironic, even a retard with intelligence lower than 70, can be true and do the most sincere stuff in the world to protect his fren, and why is that difficult for " NORMAL " ppl like us who has IQ abt 120 ( or 140 ) do things that might hurt ppl close to us. haha. maybe another lesson for me (: realised that the more normal we are, the more complicated we get. maybe thats why ppl say life is compplicated, wells, i guess not. its us.

anyway i like this mtv. its like super old, but somehow i like the pessimism within the song, and the mtv looks really " shy " heh heh

http://youtube.com/watch?v=XOTz_dHP5vQ

2006-09-01T07:38:00.000-07:00

haha, i went to peep at blogs everywhere and somehow somewhere someway i found some super cheesy but sweet line, i tink im damn good to my frens especially those who read my blog. haha. heres a pick up line, maybe not so much of pick up line for youuuuuuuuu

i woke up crying from a dream,
i was shot dead through the heart.
i cried.
not because i was afraid to die,
but because in my heart,
i knew you were in there.

damn cools man. HEY MAN, i can feel the love ._.

jc2

2006-08-31T10:18:00.000-07:00

when i saw some girls from my junior class, i realised that indeed jc2 s angel mortal game wasnt played properly, super sad. noone to write letter to and talk crap with. anyway did i tell u jc1 's angel mortal game was super fun for 1905. and i knew some 1905 seniors and till today they are still very good frens of mine. and let me tell u all how i wrote to my mortal. well, incase u duno whats angel mortal. its like u have an angel and a mortal. and you write to an angel and a mortal. and i love writing to my angel, she is super dumb . one of the reason why i can crap with her. and my jc2 mortal has realy been spontaneous and kept replying me creative and stupid letters. but when i looked back at myself, i realised that as a jc2 i wasnt that spontaneous enuff. ahhaa. somehow from the start i was really interested to play the game, but soon later i got tired. cox they reply very slow and somehow i realised that i cant find my angel. or maybe i wasnt even adopted. haiks. it sounds really stupid. cox im taking a levels in like few months time, and we are playing game. hahaa. when our class first heard abt the angel mortal game, many responded by saying " must play ah, sians lah. you help me write can " haiya, not much of us were attracted by this game,noone thinks it is fun and stuff. more were interested in their studies really. and u cannot fault them for anyting. maybe ppl have different perspectives.and some alredy prioritise what they want for life alredy. they dun wan to fail and regret so they are damn keen abt studying. but for me, i guess im totally different. i work hard and play hard when i really realised that im deep shit. and i really tend to enjoy life and day by day, cox i just love the mysterious feeling of tomorrow. noone knows what s gonna happen tml and i really like to enjoy each day as much i could. maybe many perceive me to be happy go lucky,and someone who is just waasting each day and not taking things seriously. hahaa. i duno abt it. i guess im really the type of guy who is not meant to lead, but those in the team who creates stupid jokes to keep the team bonded. i like to see ppl in one big piece and i like team-work. for basketball, i was jsut a bench warmer ,but i guess im not really concerned abt that. i really appreciated trainings where some of us really go into frenzy and talk rubbish, gossip after trainings and stuff. and i tink im drifting far off. not here to evaluate what person im. haha. to end off all the blabbering, my mortal is a dumb baboosingh. HA

anddeee

2006-08-29T06:29:00.000-07:00

feeling very empty and bored at the moment, haiya is there always a price to pay to do well for A levels? i dun feel like studying lah. haiya, super stressed lah.haiya, always ended up sleeping in the library while studying. and i always bring a spare shirt each day because i will need to cover my face when i sleep, in case ppl see how i drool and flood the whole library. i tink i am thinking a lot these days, wondering what im actually looking for in my life. super empty now. i dun even know what i want. AHHH. just feel like ranting and complaining. phang always ask me out to town, i tink he is crasy, but on the other time, i got some frens to mahjong in my house. i tink im even more crasy, prelims is just 2 weeks away i tink, gp is no where near a pass, and my other grades are ever-fluctuating. haiya. why i so stupid. haha. why cant i be any smart kids out there who doesnt need to study and able to get an A like noone's business. AHHHH. i tink i sounded super childish. alrite, enough complaining for today, get down to business now. NO MORE SLEEPING FROM TML ONWARDS =/

-.-

2006-08-27T06:41:00.000-07:00

andie hong is lousy.
:D

dumb

2006-08-27T06:31:00.000-07:00

haiya, the blog is damn stupid. when i thought i posted my entry, it read " page not displayed " something like that. WTF. and in the end, i decided not to blog for the night. shit lah. forgot what i wanted to say alredy. and anyway did i mention that i injured someone while playing some soccer. ahaa. i tink he bled but glad he was alright. and it was quite mean of me to apologise to him only after one week when i met him on the pitch for soccer again. i tink im damn smart lah. while playing against his team, i played full time defender so that i will not elbow or injure him in any way since there was no contact at all. * grins . songs in my ipod are crap nowadays , duno what happened to my nice songs, now i have to struggle with the ULTRA-SLOW coldplay songs, and screeching and yelling songs by taking back sunday and stuff. some are nice lah. but thats not my taste lah. something is wrong, and on a serious note, CALLING FOR REINFORCEMENT !To all andie's frens out there : SENT ME NICE SONGS ! (:

a different family

2006-08-23T09:47:00.000-07:00

deep inside,you aint the person your friends view you as. deep inside, you know theres lots of troubles bothering you and always revolving around you. you have tried to hide all these while and now it ends up hurting the ppl around you. sometimes u reli gootta be a man and solve some problems lying right in front of you. so today i pray for more courage tml, soon i will be strong enough to ensure my loved ones will always stay together with me (:

indeed indeed

2006-08-19T13:21:00.000-07:00

its about four fifteen and im staying up with my games as usual on a typical saturday night. game's just finished and somehow i read some blogs while yawning, and i saw some interesting posts on how ppl view their lives. hmmm, great enlightment for me. it seems that im reli very satisfied with my life now, i got my family , my friends who care for me. though most of the time troubles visit me and always catch me unprepared, im always sure that support from my loved ones and time will do the job for me. why is that most ppl arent satisfied with their respective life? hmm, and if i will grant you the power to exchange ur life for another, will you take the offer or drop it. it seems that most ppl grumble abt their life when they are down, and thus at that instant, they think that life is really unfair. but has life always been this way, these people tend to forget the times where they were given a chance to enjoy themselves? ( while maybe even some ppl are being deprived of this chance ) i guess most people dun wanna go through any hard times, and if i were given a different life, i will want to take the life of my fren mr zues, 193 cm! HAHAA, i wil become the tallest man ever ( perhaps singapore only ) 193cm is cool, and one day if i were given such gifts, it wil be quite cool. and if i can have a temporary change, i will want the life of a blind, really wanna try the feeling of looking at the world without any colours, or judge ppl by their fashionable outfit. all i see will be images in black and white and maybe i will cherish my life after tasting more hardships like having difficulty crossing traffic lights? food for thought it is (:

changed me

2006-08-18T08:53:00.000-07:00

haiks, recently have really good gossiping sessions with mr. phang and mr. hoe, and it seems that i start to realise what a person im. but not really sure abt what im seriously but sumthing i know abt myself i LOVE being carefree after all (: and i guess i willnt want to stay in a place too long or shd i say i love wandering around. so i guess im gonna think hard abt my career, while filming industry looks extremely fun, it seems that its a hard path. or shd i just stick to the norm - BUSINESS BOY ):

tireless nights

2006-08-15T07:11:00.000-07:00

haven been getting a real sleep for ages. slept at 6a.m the other day with this crasy friend. and at the same time, i made some drastic changes to the blog. how surprising,most of my friends questioned abt the DRASTIC CHANGES? come on ppl. open your eyes, look at each captions! they are refreshing and so different from last time. especially about the 187cm accompanied by fairer skin. alright it sounds quite stupid, but i wish to hit 187cm after a levels and certainly fairer skin colour. hee. maybe after alevels,im able to fully release and vent out all the stress accumulated throughout this period of time, and ta da, this sudden outburst of stress may do some chemical changes to my body and POOF, bring me to "GREATER HEIGHTS". 187cm is perfect for a model yup and a fair skin to go along to make me a real PRINCE CHARMING! MUAHAHAHA. okay lah. sounds really stupid, but let this be my hope for now. gonna catch up on some sleep whenever i can, life seems to be revolving around studying all this time now and who knows if this will carry on through till the As are over. HOLIDAY HERE I COME .___.

mug day

2006-08-12T10:17:00.000-07:00

haiya. today was supposed to be a mugging day but it didnt end off as expected, only finished maths prelim 2003 paper 1 and so many blanks and red circles over the paper and i did mark my attempted answers, alright i got the first 4 questions and the rest were all red. i bet it was too difficult for everyone and not only for myself. yes. i totally believe that it was TOO tough. yups, went to airport to study! yay. and on the way there. cowli told me airport very crowded and rowdy cox there was a bomb attack yesterday and i was like what the hell as i picked up his call when im alredy at tanah merah mrt. .____. damn stupid, but i hang up anyway shortly. that bastard is studying with a girl. COWLI tsk tsk tsk. orh yar, studied at airport delifrance and it wasnt that bad,and that junjie with a HEART pangsehed his friends and studied with us. how UNPREDICTABLE. hee. ahhh. super not fruitful but i realised i like the atmosphere there, and i really liked the company. sumtimes i really wondered how life will be if i was left alone one day to roam on this world alone. with no friends or noone who even recognises me. wil i rot and die at the end of the day, not making a single new friend ? hmm, anyway on a lighter note, saw a cute japanese or korean guy. quite handsome and tall. i mean he looks tall, was admiring his nose when he was munching/ not bad at all. ahhhhhhhh. anyway changi is too far but i like this place, any other recommendations ppl ? (:

a special day

2006-08-10T09:21:00.000-07:00

do u know it rained tonight ?
i stayed up through the night and i realised it rained,and i was watching the rain for a few seconds and i was thinking if god has some special implications for me. im unsure,but my fren told me she tot she was the only one who tot that it rained for her. hmmm, i duno what im talking abt here but i tink my real intention of blogging is just to blabber yeh. and i tink im almost done, and i realise that ppl who has been disappointed once and again are very feeble and prone to strangers. i bet this sounded really common sense and stupid, but yeh. i am blabbering once again, and i was enlightened suddenly by the rain and i realised that there are two types of flirt. one flirts and flirts and flirts, just to gain attention and break ppl's heart. second flirts and always maintain the not here not there relationship,and never dares or have the courage to tell the one who he or she loves who he feels directly. maybe this is deemed as misleading and can deal more hurt than the first type of flirt. however if im given a choice, i rather be with the second group. dun show how you really feel might be good. anyway did i tell you being mysterious and unfeeling on the surface makes one more interesting and seductive? also, also, also, i realise that as most of my friends proceed with their life, they become more pessimistic and somehow lose their innocence. maybe thats what it means by growing up? and becoming a real MAN or WOMAN. hmm, thats worth my thought. and now i just wanna stay the way im. i dun wanna grow up, there are many more complicated sides to life that i have witnessed in adults, and im starting to fear them now. stay young please andie! wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

so long

2006-07-27T10:03:00.000-07:00

its been so looooooooooong since i blogged , about two months alredy. haiks. lifes been really messy for me, mums been nagging more and more, but my results have become better and better and so why dun the nagging stop., no more basketball, no more sweaty shirts and gossips dinner sessions with dear basketballers, miss saviour, eugnee, tsui wei and rui xiang, the gossiping partners alot alot. though rui xiang is always talking abt non-linked stuff, but i realy enjoy the company now, haiks . wanna celebrate classmates' birthday and not everyone wants to turn up and attendance for class parties are always that poor, i just dun understand why cant such easy task like coming together for a class party that DIFFICULT? damnnn, haha,anyway that word " dammnn" was my favourite line in our racial harmony video, orh did i mention it?jiayi me shuiyong phang and val took part in the racial harmony video, yups and it was lotsa of fun i guess, i hope . but we didnt win, maybe our work was really bit offensive, haiks, so disappointing, thought the whole school could get to taste the master production by 1805. and sorry for allocating so little dialogues for your guys and so much for myself, haiks, really did a bad job in organising the script. and i will really improve on that point! but i really enjoyed the effort you all put in, especially jiayi , as he was prepared to sacrifice himself by striping to act as a pervert. ( strip top only ) ahaha. thanks a lot. i realised that i found a gp of serious good classmates, phang, jiayi hoe, junrong,keeneth, shuiyong. and ragen. but i guess sumtimes there are downs where classmates have to go thru together, and i am hoping that our friendship could change for the better and im really really looking forward to your forgiveness...

its a dream

2006-07-01T07:26:00.000-07:00

thanks for the ride though (:

your smile is really nice.

part 2

2006-05-29T06:47:00.000-07:00

yup, season has ended and holiday has started! whee! lets all get motivated and start doing some work, i guess i have mastered group 2 and group 7 elements for chemistry but the topics to be tested are scaring me lah. anyway shdnt blog about studies since im out of aj now! let me enjoy the holiday mood! many birthdays coming ahead and i realise i forgot many birthday during the basketball season! im really very sorry and i hope to wish you all a belated one! hmmm, the presents ah ? im really in deficit now,and with regards to the deficit tingy, my girlfren and i shared totally different views. i guess im the type who tries to support all of my frens and ended up in such a bad shape and having to starve myself , and according to phang, we both arent able to appreciate dances or music whatsoever, our forte is CHEERING! hee (: i duno if going down for ur classmates' concert will bring the class together or something like that, but i guess i will try to go down for all concerts of classmates yea. and yes, my wishings and blessings to those i missed out !

YU HUAN ! *guilty* ( i just realised that ur birthday was on our finals! )
weihui ! ( sheesh, i tink i owe u one birthday gift last year, now its TWO ! -.- )
jameson! ( its finally yours now, spent lots on it )
terence DENG! ( i dun tink you wil be here anyway, but pls dun hide ur gf and stuff from us )
tow junjie ( no presents as usual )

hmm, shit, mums nagging again! there goes . . .
and once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEEPS!

To: yu huan " im sure the escape outing will be successful soon ! HAHA (: "

life is good

2006-05-26T10:05:00.000-07:00

hey! basketball season ended some time ago, but i just cant find time to do some blogging.hee hee,im damn lazy! more about the basketball season, hmm, we got second! it isnt that bad and i dun really sad because of the results but more due to the fact that the basketball-ers are not longer having training and such anymore. for those tears and perspiration we slogged in, for those suanning and awful singing in the toilet, i gotta to admit reluctantly that im no longer a basketballer now. i will,i must be a real MUGGER! " i tink you have to prioritise your work, andee " this statement by my form teacher has been revolving around my mind for some time, and i tink i tink i tink its time i put in some real actions. its really great to have met great people from the team and i guess i met great people rather than great basketballers. basketballer is a smaller subset of people i guess, and i really learnt a lot from them. mum's nagging. continuing part two in a while (:

phew

2006-04-28T22:16:00.000-07:00

life was so hectic last week,nono,last last week.couldnt imagine that i actually survived till this far,but all happened for a good cause i guess.cheer practice was fun,and im sure everyone enjoyed it,yup,no more cheerleading for me in the future i guess.the hip hop dance was tough to learn to pick up,but now look! even jiayi could master it in two days! that explains how good a teacher i am (: jiayi joined us two days before sports day and put in lotsa effort to train himself up,i really gotta saluate him for his utmost effort and his talent in dancing,though jing jie say he dances like a dog,and zibbie laughs like a dog.reli didnt imagine so much fun could happen during cheerlead,more than socialising,it was compromising one's fears i guess.yuhao kept instilling in me that i shdnt be fearful when tossing someone.i just feel so worried when i had to throw sumone and there yuhao and others keep reassuring me that everyting was in place.and look! everythings really in place.the effort put in paid off.and wheres the trophy now.i miss it so much.though zibbie told us she didnt feel that happy getting the trophy and some factor was missing,i had to agree with her.thats just sumting lagging.we did put in lots hardwork,trained till very hard.and now i understand why we werent so happy,cox its time we leave all this behind.the days we slogged in so hard for the performance is finally over,a sigh of relief u might say,but i guess it also marks the day we gonna be the ordinary students in aj once again,with books and tys in our hands.no more activities like doing breakdance,training up on FREEZE,no more suannings and laughing like a " DOG ", all this is over,and i guess everyones gonna carry on with their lives and keep smiling yea? and so much for cheerlead,i gotta say that i haven been that considerate after all,didnt make a right choice ): and on a lighter note, competition has started! ajc advanced into second round alredy. though i was benched for crucial matches,i did play and did score (: and i hope and pray my injuries would recover before our next match! i wanna play ! (:

fucked

2006-04-10T09:32:00.000-07:00

im fucking irritated by all this shit ! FUCK OFF

team

2006-04-02T06:54:00.000-07:00

phew.the weeks gone in the blink of an eye.AYAH!didnt do much work again and it seems that the planning of schedule isnt effective at all.hmm,well the whole team,almost the whole teams down with no hair.heh heh,morale should be high and will stay high. competition is drawing near and im slacking far too much.HERE I COME!i came to show what i got.not a lot actually ):

my hair

2006-03-22T08:42:00.000-08:00

yerks,okay school is dreading for me each and every day.and WHY ? stupid hair lah, haiya! everyone says im balding! thanks a lot,its the barber lah, he trimmed my fringe til there's no hair. args. life is painful now.no face alredy. skipped lecture so as not to let ppl see my ugly hair. damn stupid but what to do,ahhhhh! everyone's laughing at me,but on the other hand, first time mr lim told me that its the first time he didnt catch me for hair as he went around picking out ppl today during pe.phew. ppl say if you are not confident,you will lose everything, including looks. so i shal heed that advice,i must be confident.

" I AM CONFIDENT I AM CONFIDENT I AM CONFIDENT "

-chants and chants-

(: okay,im HANDSOME now! muahahaaaaa

simple

2006-03-20T07:42:00.000-08:00

wait,regarding the previous entry bout what makes up a typical andie,i tink i have one model answer of my own,though its silly and cliched,i guess theres no embarrassement typing it here ( HEH HEH ) you guys can laugh all u want.

typical andie is made up of FAMILY , FRIENDS , 1 GIRL , LAUGHTER .

and now i realise the word " friends " seems to be fading slowly,i hope time could heal our wounds, maybe it will, most probably it willnt.

trust

2006-03-09T05:17:00.000-08:00

yup,had a really bad time in the morning,johnny is right,its a matter of trust,and simply ive made the dumbest and most unforgivable folly of my life.when i look back at what i did,i realise im such a big idiot who took his fren's trust all away.sumtimes u open your mouth for the stupid-est reason,i gotta to agree with him that im have no link in all words all the time,i dun need forgiveness from him,i need it from myself.so i spent the morning sleeping and reflecting,suntanning outside my class with my mp3 and it seems that folly of what i did in the past starts refreshing in my mind.i just dun get WHY im so STUPID! haiks,if i were to display my anger and vent it on a table,im sure i will break YUQIN's marble table again! -.- wasnt in the mood to talk today, and being especially quiet attracted lots of attention.everyone started asking me why i looked so sad and quiet,i didnt reply much and sum went on to say " he's attracting attention by not talking " i didnt respond to that either,maybe i was too tired to retailiate,and care abt anything other tings,but as i fell into despair for those moments, i realise how many great frens i have and how much im being loved.thanks for all concerning classmates and encouragements.i really have to say that frenship can do wonders,ultimately it can be so fragile and destructive.next,i proceeded to canteen and talked with melissa and gang,and words just came out from my mouth. i guess i carn keep myself from talking.i need to talk,and thats my strength and with no doubt, weakness to a larger extent.

what makes a typical ANDIE ?

responses : DUMB , BLACK , LOSER

lets all stick with LOSER

lazy

2006-03-08T07:20:00.000-08:00

just looked at the intervals that indicated when i last blogged.realised i getting lazier and lazier.help me.but ive been skipping lectures and sleeping in homerooms,ahhhh,sumone help me,i tink i staying with phang too much.the laziness plague spreading in the class,hoe seng junrong,jiayi ragen all infected alredy.lets all make a resolution,hmm march holiday resolution!

NEVER SLACK DURING THE HOLIDAYS!

okay,thats unattainable,but i gotta set myself a target.so that i will not fail that miserably,just like my econs essay, 0/13 thanks larh,which faggot can get such grades.but on a happily note,i didnt FAIL my math test ! lol (: anyway march holidays coming. and im gonna PLAY it all WILD ! yay. last of all, aj lost today. ragen come on ,dun be sad ,i stil love u loads !

unity

2006-02-27T07:47:00.000-08:00

orh mans,didnt know the NA **** incident sparked off so badly that junrong was rumoured to be fighting with jiayi in class,jiayi tore junrong's shirt with his bare hands,and in response jiayi was not given a good time by junrong,he tossed jiayi over the table and strangled him with the projector wire.thats was exaggeration and imagination running through my mind.but junrong became so pissed with the shit we were suanning him about.heh heh.he FINALLY blew up!-pat pat junrong's hair- dont be angry with jiayi and us la.lets shake hands and be good friends again,and on a serious note,if u two really toss one another over the tables,i dont fren u all alredy! -pouts- MUAHAHA (:

chances that come by

2006-02-18T19:32:00.000-08:00

alright,blog has been rotting all these while!yup,so i shd gladly and be optimistic and hope for mum to be more lenient with me-PLEASE LET ME USE THE COMPUTER! but anyway im drifting away from being a computer addict,now i read NEWSPAPERS every day,and i hope i hope i hope my english will become so POWERFUL and FORMIDABLE! (: craps,anyway really very enthu about trainings nowadays.it just feels so different now,now i usually play on the starting five side cox darren's not here,though i know i feel im not in the first 5 calibre,i feel very comfortable,everyones giving me chance to learn now,to learn for the better,and not to exclude nico's bashing and scolding,its okay,i can take e pressure and hope this would aid me in handling the pressured situation during nationals a division.i trust that scenario will be much more tensing than trainings in school,everyone will be staring and peeking at how we will play,or maybe oh wells,most girls will peep at yuhao and see exactly how handsome he will be,i dont know,but sumthings for sure,i wanna play like my usual self and not let anyone down,and not squander this chance at my footstep,members have left and the atmosphere's just not right.i miss all of you,the times we noobs compared to the main five worked so hard in trying to prove ourselves,i guess those are the moments i cant bear to let go.dropped and quit.somehow i tink i have gone thru all this last year,and that made me motivated for this year,i dun wanna waste one more year of my youth,my 18,my chance to take myself to the test.last year i made a foolish mistake,and yes,coach gave up on me,and there i came fighting for my place this year,i hope you understand what i mean.its difficult all this while,but if you keep hanging there,you will find your way out some day (:

new year new start

2006-01-28T08:54:00.000-08:00

yups,i guess now is the real start to the year rite,so whatever sins i have commited in the past could be omitted!yay!(: heh heh,i really dun get the difference between happy new year and happy chinese new year,but i kinda heard it was due to some lunar calendar tingy,but whats more important,HOLIDAYS again!heh heh,i tink i wil be slacking my way thru but i tot of it again,i am going to be a CHANGED man for the NEW year,and im very determined about my words. ( YEAH RIGHT )
i forgot about my chinese new year resolutions la!didnt put my hands into sumone's pocket and made my chinese new year resolution!wasted,but its okay,i shall put my hands into my pocket and do the same ting-closes eyes-i wish i wish,wait a minute i forgot abt my new year resolution too!shyt,but its okay,i can have two wishes!lala(: its real strange cox i cant tink of any right now,i just wish for the most basic tings maybe - HEALTH and HAPPINESS - my family my friends and everyone i know,nah, everyone pls stay healthy and happy.whats there to complain and grumble abt,after all its a new year and let bygones be bygones! (: lets live to a new start,and get ready to unfold a chapter of new journey of our lives! (: and one litttle wish,

andiana never fades

2 years from sec 4

2006-01-28T02:32:00.000-08:00

whee!just celebrated my 18th birthday!yup,im a full grown up man now,but rest assured im still growing-i dun care anyway,puberty stops at 21 for man i guess,so i can still grow a few centimetres and hit 180cm!im the uprising F5(: thats so lame,anyway you guys made my day today.it started off on 25th january around 11,whereby stupid ding jie msged at 1130 and wished me an early birthday cox he was so TIRED.THANKS la,den bel's msg came in too right before 12!yups,a big hug to those who sent their wishes to me!and i have to commend these ppl for making the effort to add in the word " hansom" so happy! YAY!(: den wanling came over in school to give me a nicely decorated card with a nice scenery of canada!yuqin meijie and jiexin den came over with their self proclaimed " most creative and cheapest birthday card" made of fullscap paper,thanks anyway for the ink wasted on me!haha (: my lovely class! thanks sabrina and suelynn for getting the cake during school hours for me! they had to travel out of school to get the cake and thats real SWEET! then we sang the birthday song and clapped to the joy of our hearts and basically i hope everyone did get a fair share of the birthday cake!i wasnt allergic to chocolate anyway,but toothache always occur frequently ( I DID BRUSH MY TEETH LA ) den miss casey goh came in,and the class decided to sing the birthday song again so as to delay time,and -grins- we got it!hahaa, fifteen minutes was delayed for cake-eating and distribution! after the day, i went to some place with mr.phang and i got it!the hot stuff (: den came the climax of the day,went off with diana to get some dinner and yups, we found it odd to eat in coffeclub and settled in swensons,where im sure diana' hips has grown by another 2cm after eating the ultra-fattening banana crumple,and my day ended with the sweetest gift ever presented by the nuts family! thanks a lot for the 7-eleven big gulp of wishes and the white white adidas shirt! (:

Hugs and Kisses
-ah fu
-alan
-brother hongs!
-bel
-kaiting
-terence deng!
-chang tai!
-cindia liu
-cindia tan
-ding jie
-eleanor
-hazel
-hoho
-huka
-jiamein
-jiexin
-meijie
-teck hao
-yuqin
-kaihui
-linnet
-khalisa
-eugene!
-zhitong
-liang mong
-laura
-sam!
-gao li!
-madam jean lee
-miss casey goh
-manprit
-melissa fu
-muikoon
-myra
-qin fang
-serene
-shafiq
-shallin
-sheila
-sister da jie da
-jun jie !
-tan xuan
-wei hui
-wei zi
-wen qiang !
-yin hai !
-yu huan
-yu xian
-zhen !
-my entire class !!!
-all the basketballers in cat high and aj !

and thanks to the core players who celebrated my birthday wildly in the toilet
-hon chan, nico , darren !

but last but no least , thanks to braddy and yinhai who celebrated their birthday too ! not forgetting the " andiana " (:

pacing too fast

2006-01-21T08:26:00.000-08:00

ahhhhhh!cannot breathe,yups,ms goh's chasing me for more holiday assignment,and mr lim asking me to report to me at 715 each day-blah blah blah!im somehow pushed to the corner with immense pressure that i can hardly breathe.i dun get to see u for almost a week and only get to spend less than a day with u to compensate all the times im not by your side,awww,i sound so caring and sentimental!hahaa(: nah,basketball too,getting more injuries,tink have been over-exerting my strength during trainings-hands are damn pain and legs realy weary,but theres no time to take a break.the og outing too!everyones asking me to plan!and i really really have no time to plan it!stupid cwo, make up pe and good trainings and my long-distance relationship,i feel as if im goona capsize any time,and maybe i will fall without support ):

lov

2006-01-17T08:28:00.000-08:00

it seems that its right what my frens told me,never start a relationship too sweet and interesting,thats because soon or later you will run out of spices to entertain and surprise your girlfriend with more sweet surprises.it seems that the spices that were der to start our chemical reaction has fallen by a little,and surprises seem like routine in our lives.i dun really believe in allocatiing sweetness for special occasions-that wil mean being extremely sweet on valentines or anniversary,each and every day appears to me that i can make sumone's day easily with that amount of effort.but is time the excuse for my decreasing concern and creativity to make u even a happier person.i go home each day with a worn-out mind and i really find it difficult to even activate my brains to do sumting for u.but i also believe in sumthing

if there's a will,there's a way

dilution of love will take place,but the no. of moles remain the same (:

2006

2006-01-08T03:06:00.001-08:00

todays the opening of 2006! causeee its e STARTING of schooool,oh HELP! school sounded like a taboo word but now its proudly accepted by me!i just love school,get away from mum's naggings,forget the fact that i have no computer to use at home,can see new faces,pretty faces,handsome faces that threaten my existance! HAHA (: im regretting why i didnt become an ogl! can dance, can skip lessons, can see funny ppl and talk crap all day! why why why! haha.but lucky training kept me occupied! aj teams morale is high,so dun mess around wf us babes.haha!guess what!mr chio is gone,mr chua is gone.i hate this feeling.when you get too close wf sumone,and he or she leaves,it just feel like you are empty and theres sumthing thats just incomplete!i miss mr.chio and his oily greasy finely-gel-hair,and his smile that seems to keep me going for the rest of the day,mr chua's sillyness and cute high pants that assured me that he was never gonna scold me even when i brought buns to eat in class.they just make up parts of me! haha.got a new form teacher,she looked like one student in j2 now,i shall not comment on her appearance,anyways shes called miss casey goh.haha,she seemed really nice and motherly. ( i dun mean really nice to bully ) haha!and our new econs teacher, helen chong is crazy and brimmed with energy.superior acting quality in her,can be some drama-queen!haha.i guess when i become a director one fine fine day,i should sign her as my cast!hahah.diana told me 3rd jan was an important day and i was finally enlightened,it was the day our lives crossed,the day i met my first og frens and the first day my confidence took over me.i miss my orientation friends,simply miss them a lot!some were stil contacting me and we were getting on just fine.let me refresh my memory of my og mates one year ago. . .
diana-cute smile
yuhuan-the extremely fierce and pls-do-not-meddle-with-her face
cindia-no eyes
aileen-the red converse shoes!
prisicilla-chubby little ting
hazel- hot hunk
weizi - first girl i talked to !
stephanie- always talking with aileen
myra- my hairstyle !
xianhui - quiet
soh hiang- quieter
and for the guys,i guess i love all of them,i clicked with my mr.changtai,the mayflower scholar!haha,den came the funny guys sky alan edwin weirui alex! ahha,all were fun-loving ppl,and of cox can rememeber keith!he was very quiet too,bo quan was dominating and stil got one more forgot the name!hahaa (: first 3 mths was full of surprises,now i look back at the new jc1,i realise i 've relived my jc1 memories! but pls no more CWOs :)

couldnt hold it anymore

2006-01-06T19:28:00.000-08:00

patience is a virtue,and holding ur temper is another virtue.unfortunately i can have patience and at the same time,hold my anger in my school and in front of frens,but towards family members,i cant.AHHHHHHHH!i think i am just taken them for granted,but sumtimes i reli hate them for what they do.i dun hate mum that much though she nags,and grounds me,and doesnt allow my fingers to rest on the computer keypad.i hate it when someone else hogs onto the computer for so damn long,and requests me to get off when i just started to have fun.thanks a lot,fine,i am ANTI-COMPUTER now!so the next time i come here again,might be after alevels,where i officially get my own laptop.so ppl out der,do worry.i will be MUG-ING all the time now.. F-U-N-I-E !

WORK !

2006-01-01T00:00:00.000-08:00

HEY! does that cap locks seem energetic for a new start ? WELCOME 2006 ! heh heh,i am acting like a retard..okay,i heard voices saying " you alredy are" .thats it! enough,lemme talk about my past few experiences at a extremely isolated area with no touch of warmthj or love what so ever.actualli i was crapping,basically i went to work! HAHA (: as some pizza=boy or waiter you called it at shangrila hotel near the bench.firstly impression of place was some hut build beside beach where babes come running to the counter to buy beverages,yar..thats so cliched thinking,the first day me yinhai and gaoli went for work was WONDERFUL.we were sacked before work! HAHA.the boss,SIMON told us to wear black pants and black shoes,instead we went with dashing charming magnificent BLUE pants and fanciful sneakers!WHEE (: all i can remember is " you all dun have to work today " and the next minute, we were weeping and crying and strolling on siloso beach.okay,too exaggerated.we basically calmed our weary and rejected hearts on the beach where i spotted one pair of gays.YUCK,what luck to add to my day! a few days,i had to report for work alone.i was very very excited,a bit uneasy i should say after hearing from yinhai's working experience alone a day ahead of me. he got tortured by SIMON with his sarcastic remarks and " praises " haha,so i came early to my working place hoping to suck up to SIMON with my punctuality, when i realised i forgot to bring my STUDENT PASS. damn it,and again, i heard something all so familiar " you can go home today " and there it goes, SACKED again! -pat pat- HAHA (: yesterday on new years'eve all 3 of us had to work,we were nervous as we thought many customers including babes wil dash to us for drinks and stuff,no la.how can i be someone of that sort,actualli cox its our last day working so we three felt high.we took charge of the beer tent where we pump beer from the machine and sell to customers,twelve was coming,yet we sold only a few cups of beer with the divine help of the TIGER GIRLS ! HAHA (: they were very sociable and friendly,of course they are nice ppl and yar,we too, nice ppl mix wf nice ppl ! HAHA..twelve came,we took some lame stuff and stuff it at our nose and mouth and starting blowing to start off the atmosphere.in no time, staff were blowing trumpets and customers joined in the fun.they were great.sentosa was HOT with noise and ambience. then came fireworks into the dark sky,and the three musketers got out from their workplace,and ran after the fireworks ( SUPER EXAGGERATED ) ! beautiful fireworks,but i didnt have my girl beside me.hais ): hope shes receiving my excitement at the other end! haha.next up,chefs rapped and danced with their pots and pans ( HELP,exaggeration! ) and dashed to our tents for beer,at this pt of time,we couldnt withstand anymore, we started stealing pizzas and drinks in our own tents, and allowed chefs to take their own drinks for free.the atmosphere was HIGH,and beer were all splashed over another.and in the blink of an eye,we were packing up all the mess ... HAPPY NEW YEAR ! (:

years it seems

2005-12-23T00:16:00.000-08:00

yup,its been a very very long time since i came here to write sumthing abt wad has happened,what i hoped could have happened,what i hoped should not have happened,but yar,everything happened in a flash,even i am startled by this sudden series of incidents,ppl always wanna remmeber the most beautiful memories of their life,but somehow i feel that its much easier to remember the most horrible and painful experiences of your life,somehow i feel it today.it feels painful when yu hope for everything to be in this way,and den yu realise that all has been settled in another manner that yu will never ever want it to happen.i might say that i have indeed considered the outcomes of my actions,but this time round,i failed badly.things happened and ended like a nightmare,worst than a nightmare.you can wake up from a nightmare,but you cannot struggle free from the pain and fright you get from the nightmare,i duno wad im saying,i dun wanna make myself clear,i dun wanna have a clear stand,it seems that wad i predicted would happen would stil happen despite me trying hard to prevent it.i just feel disappointed with myself,the way things came out to be,yar,and i realised im really a bad person.i dun feel the guilt,but as soon as i start reflecting,i feel tears somewhere,but i tried hard,real hard to conceal them.im starting to feel regretful

its true, tears = regrets.

fucked up

2005-11-16T08:25:00.000-08:00

yar,i need to do my project. well. fuck off. args.. okay im not perfect alright, yar,i just need to vent my anger sumwhere. duno how much vulgar expletives are needed to get me all calmed down. forget it,just finish some steamboat in marina bay.haha. reli reli very full now.we had more of a watermelon steamboat feast.i attacked all the cockles in e shop and we did we did waste some food. haha. okok. i have no computer to use for almost a long long time, have to rely on the two brothers' computer to survive, always threaten the small one to let me use, end up always arguing wf the other one , yar, most of the time, it just ends off harshly, with lots of his excuses, maybe im in the wrong too, yar. but damn it,yu have been hogging on your computer for so damn long, let me use a while can? its your computer , yaya. your project, your everything. well, i just cannot get another computer, cannot get it alright. yar,perhaps yu duno why i carn get a computer.and inside i reli hate u when yu dun reli consider giving way. yar, and den yu will say yu given me too much . yar. okay. i agree sumtimes, yar. alright.im in a foul mood. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ! lets hope tml will be a better day. damn it

memories that last

2005-11-12T08:03:00.000-08:00

haha,went out to watch some professionals play basketball at indoor stadium.yup,monkey tsui wei was playing,den my frens brought some large banners wf them.on the spot drew some monkey and words to cheer for tsui wei.though its stupid and embarrassing cheering loudly and everyone was turning around to giggle at our stupid acts,i kinda thought it was quite fun.its always fun to be in a crowd,though being mocked at,we dun feel anyting.yup.sometimes its true we shouldnt look at how others tink,as long as we are happy with our actions.ahhaa.den proceeded on some prata wf the basketballers.stupid idiot.finally a time where we all gathered next to one another and revived some memories that we thought didnt last.yay.deres a long way more to go,meet up more often and gossip! HAHA (:

its gone

2005-11-04T08:23:00.000-08:00

yups.its nighttime.ahhhhhhhhhhh! okay okay,i am losing my confidence.yar you are right,such ting come eventually,and indeed im not smart enuff to find the solution.come on. PESSIMISM CLING ON ME ! AHHHHH ! -feel like screaming it out and listening to UNTITLED now-

focus on ball alredy,i carn do much wonders anywhere else, perhaps not even on the court.

THANKS

mum's advice

2005-10-31T21:30:00.000-08:00

you not gonna make it to university with this attitude"
yar.i know what yu are driving at.yar.i know.just trust me"
how do you expect me to trust u when yu are not doing anyting at all"
i seriously feel tired listening to e same old words over and over again.MUM PLEASE STOP NAGGING!i know yu are doing this all for my good.yar.i wil study.just trst me please.i have done it during o levels,and i just ask for u to trust me.i know getting into university is much harder than getting into o levels.i know this.but can yu just let me do my way.iknow when i wil start studying.i know im not like any kid here in singapore.i need to do well or telse i wil waste my education here in singapore,waste the money invested on me.yar.i know.and i know you are stressed out,much more stressed out than me.but i hope yu dun put more stress on me.i am struggling to fight my emotions alredy,i know i MUST do well.i know i CARN let you down,the family.i know all these,and sumtimes i wish i could just be some other singaporean kid here.at least i willnt need to take so much stress,and sumhow i am feeling that a crisis wil befall on me soon,i am struggling to find a way out,i am struggling to do sumthing and get prepared.it wil be tough on u,and on me now. trust me.please

feverished

2005-10-31T21:24:00.000-08:00

yup,stupid fever has been torturing me these days.args. feel like breaking free from this stupid illness.cannot train and cannot eat spicy food.ARGS.its feel like shit when yu seeing teammates training while yu carn.actualli i feel quite confused.it seems that im not reli into basketball now,maybe i start to blive that i carn do much wonders on the court,and thus the passion just goes away.but it even doubts my determination,i once told my teammate im gonna play this game til the day i die,looks like my promise wasnt that strong after all

half-hearted

2005-10-24T08:55:00.000-07:00

there i sent a message when i was down,i waited for reply but it didnt come.its unfair to expect one to reply yu late in e night,to at least assure you that everyting's gonna be fine,yu just want to reassure yourself yu arent alone,but the reply never comes back.she might be sleeping,but it doesnt mean yu are alone,yu are all by urself,when a message is received,the first thought will be hoping for her reply,but it isnt hers.the second message is received,no longer wil yu hope for her reply anymore cox yu know it will never be her,or even be her.sumtimes one just indulge in possessiveness,and i tink i am experiencing it now.HELP!yu ask her whether yu sms will disturb her,she says NO.she says to hammer u if yu dun message her,but yu never agree with wad she says.if shes just an ordinary fren,you willnt care abt the effects of your message,sumtimes yu might just message up to three messages at a go,to make sure yu are getting her attention.but if shes ur girl,yu are hesistant to send a second mesage for yu dun wanna disturb her.but sumtimes not getting her reply makes u feel uneasy.and yu go worrying the whole day.when yu are alone initially,yu will try to make urself feel happy even though sumone might be unhappy,yu know that yu have to be happy no matter wad,but when yu girl is unhappy,instead of making urself happy,yu will indulge in the same feeling and thats when pessimism spreads fast,and yu realised yu reached yu goal,to be feeling the same shitty mood as ur girl.how i hope optimism come guide u out (:

thief

2005-10-20T08:14:00.000-07:00

i hereby plead guilty to stealing ragen's primary school photo,pls do not alert the police or any high authority,i felt remorseful for my actions just because i thought ragen looked very cute,if i have caused inconvenience in one or another,pls do not let the cat out of the bag that i am a thief. ragen,pls forgive me,i regret stealing ur promary school photo,and that i am very disheartened when yu are cold towards me,i cried in the toilet as i am hurt emotionally.that how fragile friendship is ):

results

2005-10-18T04:13:00.000-07:00

whee! came over to announce my fresh results ! heh heh (:

D-PHYSICS
D-MATHS
C-CHEMISTRY
O-ECONOMICS

and finally the subject i did best in GP!i managed to bring back proudly a c5!heh heh,didnt know how i managed to get it,but anyway like to thank all those who help me in one or another,gonna miss mr.chio and if there are any,retainees from my class,hope no.on a brighter note,the class' organising genting highlands trip!or was it cancelled,i tink so due to the lower participation rate.but never mind,i get to go to beijing for basketball exchange programme! * smirks* gotta train hard now. (:

bad day

2005-10-16T07:51:00.000-07:00

ahhhhh,its been raining the whole day,and sumones fallen ill.SEXY VOICE hurhs,got bad sore throat.took my way down to give her a surprise,yeaps.but in e end,it turned out bad.ahhh.another selfish act by me?hmmm,i tink i needa reflect again!! AHHHHH. let me discover my flaws one by one,and soon yu wil realise i aint that great after all ):

scripts scripts

2005-10-12T08:14:00.000-07:00

i am trying to make out time for my script,hope can finish on time,and in e meanwhile i am reli into the mood of writing a musical for the class! AH ! i am so excited,hmm,but wait.i need inspirations,anyone with funky ideas can approach me,YU ARE WELCOMED! (:

summerlove

2005-10-06T08:56:00.000-07:00

Summer-love

End of summer,end of love,
so long it seems.
I thought time will help me out,
but no it seems,
i cant forget.
and every now and then i think of you,
i wish that yu werent just SOME memory.

CHORUS

and one chance is all that i need,
maybe you will take a look at me.
I duno how i should feel,
sometimes i just feel like letting go.
Summer found his way out,
it left me alone,
with winter-breeze.

Take that love out from me now,
summer ends.
Winter takes over now,
im alone,
all alone,
but every now and then i think of you,i wish that yu w'dnt just fade away.

Will this feeling die out now,
love and fate will you pls tell me now.
can yu end my misery now,
yu know yu are the onli one that i need
summer found his way out,
it left me alone,
with winter-breeze.

END-

happy side

2005-09-25T08:10:00.000-07:00

its time to realise that people always love to see happy tings,happy ppl around them.well,isnt that so true,yu willnt want to be ppl grumbling 24-7,yu wanna be sumone whom ya can joke and spend yu time crapping with,or rather yu may want to spend yu time wf sumone who can just entertain u and make u break into laughter.laughter eventually is the best medicine,i gotta agree,and sumtimes even laughter couldnt stop pessmistic thoughts from coming,and dats exactly when yu needa pull it through all by urself with the believe that yu aint alone!

lets all get promoted,and not get too carried away with emotions now

dreams

2005-09-18T10:38:00.000-07:00

just looked at the note i wrote on my table " DUN GET RETAINED " heh heh.the words are big and scary,keep reminding that me that i carn afford to fail this time round,i recall my sec 3 days,when i nearly got retained,but advanced in e end,ever since den,i promised not to play a fool.now i am back again to the same old problem,can sumone take my COMPUTER away,YUCK!i am so addicted ): AH! HELP! act i was telling my mum today if i carn make it to j2,i might go poly,den she asked me" yu sure ? " den i told her my dream was in e film-making,den she told me " take that as a hobby,not a job in e future " she hopes that i take business if i go to poly,i mean no idiot will risk trying out to be singapore's very first director,i mean noone has proved to be capable in e film-making industry,at least i havven heard of any and seen a good piece of film with my own eyes,i wanna create my movie,my films,but its just that my determination of becoming a director is not strong enuff,i carn bear to leave my comfort zone here,my friends,my loved ones,my memories in aj,initially i told myself i wasnt gonna stay,but in e end,iam stil stuck here,but happy here (:

innocent time

2005-09-17T10:43:00.000-07:00

its 1-52a.m,i just realised that a lot of tings changed since january,my birthday will never come back alredy,my first month frens,and my og mates,AHHHHHH! i miss all of u,the throwing of me into the fountain,cake on my face,water bombs in my pants,and all those gossiping sessions and teasings abt one another,they might not come back again,but i am sure memories willnt fade so fast,and come to tink abt it,our class LOG BOOK is lost.i wrote a VERY nice entry on it,and too bad,its LOST.any kind soul pls return it to us.HAHAA..just to realise,i have been a very very cheerful boy this days * notice the use of the word " BOY " * i dun wanna grow up -bite nails- heh heh.i am flying without wings each day in classs,and i am still wondering when my hyper-activeness will end,i am sure i am happy that i brought sunshine and smiles to everyone around me,i love jiayi's WEAK punches,SHUI yong's perfectness, ragen's PANG SEHnesss, hoe seng's SHOUTINGS during bridge, Phang's INDIAN accent, Kenneth's biting of nails, and junrongs' ASTRO-HAIR. whee! i miss my first 3 mths classmates too, diana, serene ,ding jie,qinfang,laura,jeremy, and so much more,and i miss JEREMY badly! i want him to suan me!i feel so bored these days,and i realised how it came abt.i am changing like the four seasons,CHANGING FOR E BETTER ! (: my og mates,i miss lots of u all, AND ALEX AND EDWIN YU BOTH STILL OWE ME MONEY. so yu guys gonna compensate me by planning the next og OUTING! heh heh, gonna end off by saying " yo,changtai " i want thank you for all ur attention anyway! i will not get RETAINED . * determined look* (:

mount everest

2005-09-10T20:23:00.000-07:00

we have conquered " MOUNT EVEREST ",
and whats more to conquer,
your heart,
and i've got it (:

" wanna bet "

i guess yu will never clear yu bets *smirks*

in e lakes YONG YUAN

2005-09-10T20:14:00.000-07:00

remember todays activities has not been planned all along,its spontanteous,yes,indeed it requires active participation to make this date a SUCCESSFUL one,den sumwhere came a grumble " what if it rains,everything will be ruined ",as quickly as it was,an answer came by " worst come to worst,we will run thru the rain " -MELTS- sorry,those lines above is not in simplified language,difficult to intepret! (: *secret dialogue extracted during the date* the planning didnt work,the durian didnt turn out to be that ATTRACTIVE,the bad ting was " the date was too STANDARD " (: but at least i hope the gifts were not too standard.stupid blunders made in the photo frame,shdnt have told u,but as i said,i FOUND SOME PERFECT WAYS TO COVER UP FOR THE IMPERFECT.heh heh,suddenly the lake seems to be experiencing a draught,but pls dun dry up,i dun wan my wish and hope inside the wishing lake to evaporate.but whatever it is,i like to end off with " whether it glows or not,the meaning behind it doesnt change " the promise wilnt change even if ders nothing to substantiate it,its all abt the bottle of TRUST ! * thats another line extracted from somewhere so familiar * -melts- till now,i will continue flying WITHOUT wings YONG YUAN . WHEE (:

the two racing stars

2005-09-04T05:46:00.000-07:00

could i hold yu hand till e end of time?

i wish too the day will never come (:

worried

2005-09-03T21:47:00.000-07:00

mum in hospital,some cuts on her leg,heard from her that blood splurted out,how unfilal a son i am,didnt attend to her,instead carried on with some activities,felt so guilty,but mum,i tink yu should know yu son cares lots for u,just that i might not have displayed it vividly... i am sorry ):
as i ran thru the scene where yu got injured,looking at the prepared food scattered over the bloody-floor,it reminds me of what yu always do to coax me to eat more for dinner,and i will always nod my head,defying ur orders,not eating vegetables,reli,ppl only start to treasure when sumting terrible happens.iam not gonna regret anymore,sorry mum
-i will not be mischievous anymore,no longer be the insensitive young boy (:

stolen memories

2005-09-03T21:39:00.000-07:00

heh heh,its e last day of school but again,i am LATE again.heh heh.CWO CWO !whee,sumtimes i feel fun serving for the school with the company of others.*winks winks* its e end of the term again,the class was supposed to party with yick-loong's hard-earned money with some pizza and have some badmintoon matches,however due to the inactive participation of classmates,pizza was off,and badminton attendance was BAD!HAHA (; ended up wf yickloong,zikai,hoeseng,kenneth,chenyin,zhiyan,debbie,me.sobs sobs.but managed to have a challenging game with classmates,and i realised that yick loong and debbie make up the scariest SMASHING forces,always aim at chen yin.HOW MEANS! but nevereless,chen yin too NOOB to protect herself! damn funie,den went for stupid cwo in e middle of my game while i was showcasing my potential,and thrashing hon chan in some badminton.,no la,he won me!*disgraced* heh heh.cwo wf sheila,yups and in e end,she got scolded for slacking, and kind me accompanied her yar,trying to force out some gossips from her,but in vain!

but at least i ended my day with u

2005-08-31T22:43:00.000-07:00

im feeling shitty now,i just duno why.pessimism is indeed infectious,duno when i became so low,i duno why.i cannot remmeber how when i felt like this,i know i am not being myself,which i tot i was.once i was confident of everytiing,now i realised i have overlooked a lot of tings,sumting feelings will die off,creativity will run off,and passion too,but i guess for now,i gonna stop all this from depleting.passion -i want this back at least (:

scripts

2005-08-26T11:06:00.000-07:00

heeyo!just came across melissa's blog and found my name flooding in there,a class musical at the end of the year seems veh promising,i promise i will be a good scriptwriteer and director,i wanna WRITE SCRIPTS,i got e best cast,a DANCER-SABRINA,my SOLO guitarist-SHUIYONG who keeps serenading girls,RAGEN that idiot who sleeps thrughout every lesson,our most daring speaker of the century who PROTESTS the GOVERNMENT AGGRESSIVELY-JUNRONG,our shortie in class,HOE SENG,my all-star-actor-indian muthu-JONATHAN PHANG,our DA-ROU-BAO mascot-JIAYI,our MELISSA who has extraordinary netball skills ( NOT SOCCER ) WHEE! (: our SAKI-HAIR- ZHI KAI (: args,cannot tink of other interesting characters,argss,my creativity is running out.WOOTS! but nvm i wil tink of a script at the end of the year if yu all persist on exploiting my talent.AHHAAAA (:

confidence never so low

2005-08-26T10:38:00.000-07:00

yups,first training after so long,thursday is sure a great day,started off the day by clearing 10 rounds of make-up p.e, i dare to say that it was quite fun,i kinda like running yar,then proceeded onto some soccer games with classmates and some lame idiots like bob who is from the same countryside as me,not bad at all,4TH trick ( 4goals it means ) arghh,den went on for basketball training,guess i enjoyed training wfout mr.lim der,feel less pressurized,bleahs ): the team is quite bonded on e outside,but inside i duno as much,sum ppl just hate sum ppl,and not all of us are willingly to continue putting up a fight though we might be lagging before,i know tings willnt be e same again like in catholic high,where all pushes them to their best,even if we know we are on e losing end,we defend all e way,but once again,why didnt we qualify for the finals,how ironic.yups,when yu dun feel like being the one to take e blame,yu give the ball to others,the ball seems like a bomb to u,yu just wanna release it fast and pass onto the others,the better " others ",even if they dun score,there willnt be any emphasize placed,they will not get blamed,and dats wad the team is lacking of,not all of the teammates are improving together,only some beta ones are climbling higher and higher,for those who carn catch up,we beta move faster (:

special nites

2005-08-23T08:43:00.000-07:00

its a tiring monday,gotta study group,den sumthing relli entertaining happened,joseph and jiexin the COUPLE! AHAH. so damn funny la,the shy or brave joseph i must say " i tink she reli quite hot lehs " carn belive that he actualli told jiexin that. -clap clap- heh heh,den went on sending my yong yuan home,yups foolish her,being glumy over work and stuff! (: i guess i wil never feel that way,i am happy nowadays,and i am sure sumone knows what wonders she did to me (: - smirks smirks- heh heh.tonight has been boring with me,but i enjoy this special nite as we transmitted our messages thru feelings instead of lips, starting to miss u ! whee

unmotivated

2005-08-20T22:05:00.000-07:00

hmm,yesterday has been a long time since i touched basketball..hmm.abt few weeks alredy..den the idiots zues,deng,cowli,me and yinhai went down to sum ulu basketball court to play wf some pros.and dere i teamed up wf nico and zues,which i am freakingly lousy,and thanks to nico,i know i am damn lousy,alright,i wil just pass e ball all to them,anyway its quite true,that we should just pass to ppl who have e highest possibility of scoring that basket..hmm.reli reli learnt a lot,if yu are lousy,yu just do the dirty job,when yu miss one shot,yu wil be blamed,but when yu are good,even if yu miss 2 or more shots,noone wil blame u,instead they allow yu to kip trying,if for a beginning or a rookie,forget it.ur presence is just unwanted.hmm.reli learnt a lot of tings,if i wanna play without restrictions,its so difficult sumtimes,reli feel like giving up and not playing in e same team as ppl who are much pro-er than me,however i tink dats a cowardly manner of looking at problems rite,hmm,shd strive harder and become stronger,so everyone wil start noticing my significance,i am just too lousy now,but never mind,i wil pick up soon,and i reli hope my teammates can motivate me,instead of bringing me down.i will be seeing u peeps next year,i promise.

no smint no kiss

2005-08-19T19:17:00.000-07:00

sumone today gave me a surprise,and happy i was.floating in school the whole day.wheeee! (: just love yong yuan to bits!i just realised i didnt do my part well,so after school,i made myself sit down,on e chair.processing an idea to return her surprises! (: *TA DA* i thought of an innovative idea.heh heh.so andie got down to business,and within one hour of HARDWORK ( sincerity is not a measure of time ) he let out a superior grin,and became even happier! whee,and as it turned out that night was another unforgetful experience for him (: *winks winks* i am not a noob anymore!!! (:

i am losing it

2005-08-17T08:06:00.000-07:00

hmm,about six months have passed,and i have to admit that i am knowing my classmates a bit better.hmm,sumtimes i am quite amazed at how tings can evolve,watching how unfamiliar classmates becoming my close frens in e clique,knew really great ppl like hoseng,phang,kenneth,jiayi,ragen,shuiyong,junrong,blah blah blah!reli gotta say that shuiyong and phang are really ppl who can control their temper very well,haven seen them losing temper before! and i gotta admit that i kinda fall in love wf shuiyong,PERFECT MAN! (: relli veh helpful and nice to get along!junrong the ULTRA out-spoken person,even i am scared of his FORMIDABLE guts,the way how he does tings,sumtimes i reli hope i can be like him,STAND UP FOR YOURSELF,i guess i am just a coward within me.about phang,lots to say abt him.reli reli complicated guy,he seems sly,cunning on e outside,and crafty but inside him,i reli gotta admit hes a very optimistic person who reli reli reli resembles me,he knows whats happening around him all e time,but he tries to act blur sumtimes to let ppl around him feel more comfortable! (: always amusing the class with his funny indian-accent and his weird but appropriately-funny comments!fun-loving guy who knows his limits and reli reli tinks for his friends! RAGEN now,that big idiot,argss,duno la, ragen is a reli big idiot who always pangsehs me all e time,yeap,and he hates me,always not telling me tings,i duno wat happened,and i am sure i miss that old ragen,where each and every day,we are always crapping,jiayi another idiot,i guess hes pissed wf me,for STEPPING on chairs,and spreading of rumours,i am reli reli sinful." i made my mistakes " hooseng tall giant,who has always the loudest voice during bridge,though he might make veh mean remarks while bridging, we all kknow by now hes always joking.and moreover he never fails to help u when yu are falling,though he might be unable to control his temper sumtimes,we all know hes harmless (: i reli reli miss this class as i spent more and more time wf u guys,though ragen u kept pangsehing me,asking me to get lost,i stil love u,jiayi though u are angry wf me for always stealing ur ipod,yu never scolded me,i appreciate u!shuiyong,junrong,hoeseng,phang and kenneth ( the one who always plays HP ) haha, thanks for being part and parcel of my life (:

6days

2005-08-16T07:52:00.000-07:00

6days have passed,and i just realised how different my life has became,the day i took a larger step into ur life,breathed the air in ur world,its totally different feeling.maybe i have to admit that i prefer oxygen over in ur world-its ever so fresh.i tink i am worsening by day,becoming more possessive,and have given u too much pressure,and i know yu have been taking it silently.im really sorry,maybe i am too rash in handling such tings.yu will breathe just fine from this moment-and again,i m marvelled at the wonders yu smile can do

its just a simple smile;but it told a thousand tales

2005-08-15T07:41:00.000-07:00

idiots,thanks for spreading racial harmony on my blog,anyway i so hope it wil be true la,i dun mind having a hot malay girlfren! *dream* - wheeeeeee

empty

2005-08-12T07:03:00.000-07:00

i have just seen u in e day,but i am starting to miss u,i couldnt concentrate.i duno why,maybe its just too heavy a burden for me to take

maybe u can let me peep at u again

special day

2005-08-10T09:20:00.000-07:00

todays a special day but i am so not gonna tell u guys why.
just to conclude,i almost flew (:

WHEE-ing off

grab or gone

2005-08-09T21:52:00.000-07:00

while stocks last,i tink its not appropriate to compare someone with a good,but sumtimes i tink if yu dun catch hold of ur love,they wil slip by too,dun yu just agreee with me.everyone tinks that theres shd be quite a moment before the stocks wil run out,so they dun shop for them fast,in love,some guys always tink that his so-called-and-recognised-partner wil wait for him,he thinks that the girl will be waiting with him,and here i am to tell yu all,they dun wait with u,they wait FOR u,and dat makes the girl so irritated,if yu dun intend the relationship,let go,and allow the girl to be over u,and explore all undiscovered paradise,once again,yu are being the selfish one if yu keep her waiting,nuting waits for u forever.most ppl have to move on,they dun and they carn stay with u without knowing the certainty of u and her being together.they dun wan uncertain answers in their lifes,they want sumting realistic and workable,or at least effort to try.if yu like her,and dun intend the relationship with her,just because yu are afraid that yu wil hurt her during this course,and yu tink by not starting a relationship,yu arent hurting her?yu keep giving her impressions that ting wil work out and der WOULD be sum OUTCOME,but insistent waiting wil keep one disappointed,ppl wil get tired one day eventually.if it doesnt work out at the end of the day,lets say yu tried yu best (:

illusions to someone might be painful

basketball dream

2005-08-09T21:25:00.000-07:00

yeaps,yesterday night headed off to sum basketball games with my secondary school friends,kinda miss them now.gaoli deng zues sam yinhai.haha.the same bunch of ppl again.haha.looks like everyones changing,now zues becoming stronger and stronger,while deng become weaker and weaker.HAHAHAHA (: i am backstabbing deng!wheeeee!

when yu take it in ur hands,yu feel extraordinary,
maybe thats ur forte,sumthing yu can do well in,
at least better than others,sumting ya feel yu can conquer,
and dats why yu chose it,basketball.

its time to get it done for once,do yu wanna continue playing or just slack around,dun ever say yu duno anymore,life is full of uncertainties alredy,at least the least yu can do is assure some uncertainity to be certainty.take control of whats within your reach at least (:

my favourite slogan i created-

Immunity to limitations is the only rule of this game