yup,had a really bad time in the morning,johnny is right,its a matter of trust,and simply ive made the dumbest and most unforgivable folly of my life.when i look back at what i did,i realise im such a big idiot who took his fren's trust all away.sumtimes u open your mouth for the stupid-est reason,i gotta to agree with him that im have no link in all words all the time,i dun need forgiveness from him,i need it from myself.so i spent the morning sleeping and reflecting,suntanning outside my class with my mp3 and it seems that folly of what i did in the past starts refreshing in my mind.i just dun get WHY im so STUPID! haiks,if i were to display my anger and vent it on a table,im sure i will break YUQIN's marble table again! -.- wasnt in the mood to talk today, and being especially quiet attracted lots of attention.everyone started asking me why i looked so sad and quiet,i didnt reply much and sum went on to say " he's attracting attention by not talking " i didnt respond to that either,maybe i was too tired to retailiate,and care abt anything other tings,but as i fell into despair for those moments, i realise how many great frens i have and how much im being loved.thanks for all concerning classmates and encouragements.i really have to say that frenship can do wonders,ultimately it can be so fragile and destructive.next,i proceeded to canteen and talked with melissa and gang,and words just came out from my mouth. i guess i carn keep myself from talking.i need to talk,and thats my strength and with no doubt, weakness to a larger extent.
