yup,its been a very very long time since i came here to write sumthing abt wad has happened,what i hoped could have happened,what i hoped should not have happened,but yar,everything happened in a flash,even i am startled by this sudden series of incidents,ppl always wanna remmeber the most beautiful memories of their life,but somehow i feel that its much easier to remember the most horrible and painful experiences of your life,somehow i feel it today.it feels painful when yu hope for everything to be in this way,and den yu realise that all has been settled in another manner that yu will never ever want it to happen.i might say that i have indeed considered the outcomes of my actions,but this time round,i failed badly.things happened and ended like a nightmare,worst than a nightmare.you can wake up from a nightmare,but you cannot struggle free from the pain and fright you get from the nightmare,i duno wad im saying,i dun wanna make myself clear,i dun wanna have a clear stand,it seems that wad i predicted would happen would stil happen despite me trying hard to prevent it.i just feel disappointed with myself,the way things came out to be,yar,and i realised im really a bad person.i dun feel the guilt,but as soon as i start reflecting,i feel tears somewhere,but i tried hard,real hard to conceal them.im starting to feel regretful
