you not gonna make it to university with this attitude" yar.i know what yu are driving at.yar.i know.just trust me" how do you expect me to trust u when yu are not doing anyting at all" i seriously feel tired listening to e same old words over and over again.MUM PLEASE STOP NAGGING!i know yu are doing this all for my good.yar.i wil study.just trst me please.i have done it during o levels,and i just ask for u to trust me.i know getting into university is much harder than getting into o levels.i know this.but can yu just let me do my way.iknow when i wil start studying.i know im not like any kid here in singapore.i need to do well or telse i wil waste my education here in singapore,waste the money invested on me.yar.i know.and i know you are stressed out,much more stressed out than me.but i hope yu dun put more stress on me.i am struggling to fight my emotions alredy,i know i MUST do well.i know i CARN let you down,the family.i know all these,and sumtimes i wish i could just be some other singaporean kid here.at least i willnt need to take so much stress,and sumhow i am feeling that a crisis wil befall on me soon,i am struggling to find a way out,i am struggling to do sumthing and get prepared.it wil be tough on u,and on me now. trust me.please
emoemoemokid infect me ; 9:30 PM
yup,stupid fever has been torturing me these days.args. feel like breaking free from this stupid illness.cannot train and cannot eat spicy food.ARGS.its feel like shit when yu seeing teammates training while yu carn.actualli i feel quite confused.it seems that im not reli into basketball now,maybe i start to blive that i carn do much wonders on the court,and thus the passion just goes away.but it even doubts my determination,i once told my teammate im gonna play this game til the day i die,looks like my promise wasnt that strong after all
emoemoemokid infect me ; 9:24 PM
Monday, October 24, 2005
there i sent a message when i was down,i waited for reply but it didnt come.its unfair to expect one to reply yu late in e night,to at least assure you that everyting's gonna be fine,yu just want to reassure yourself yu arent alone,but the reply never comes back.she might be sleeping,but it doesnt mean yu are alone,yu are all by urself,when a message is received,the first thought will be hoping for her reply,but it isnt hers.the second message is received,no longer wil yu hope for her reply anymore cox yu know it will never be her,or even be her.sumtimes one just indulge in possessiveness,and i tink i am experiencing it now.HELP!yu ask her whether yu sms will disturb her,she says NO.she says to hammer u if yu dun message her,but yu never agree with wad she says.if shes just an ordinary fren,you willnt care abt the effects of your message,sumtimes yu might just message up to three messages at a go,to make sure yu are getting her attention.but if shes ur girl,yu are hesistant to send a second mesage for yu dun wanna disturb her.but sumtimes not getting her reply makes u feel uneasy.and yu go worrying the whole day.when yu are alone initially,yu will try to make urself feel happy even though sumone might be unhappy,yu know that yu have to be happy no matter wad,but when yu girl is unhappy,instead of making urself happy,yu will indulge in the same feeling and thats when pessimism spreads fast,and yu realised yu reached yu goal,to be feeling the same shitty mood as ur girl.how i hope optimism come guide u out (:
emoemoemokid infect me ; 8:55 AM
Thursday, October 20, 2005
i hereby plead guilty to stealing ragen's primary school photo,pls do not alert the police or any high authority,i felt remorseful for my actions just because i thought ragen looked very cute,if i have caused inconvenience in one or another,pls do not let the cat out of the bag that i am a thief. ragen,pls forgive me,i regret stealing ur promary school photo,and that i am very disheartened when yu are cold towards me,i cried in the toilet as i am hurt emotionally.that how fragile friendship is ):
emoemoemokid infect me ; 8:14 AM
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
whee! came over to announce my fresh results ! heh heh (:
D-PHYSICS D-MATHS C-CHEMISTRY O-ECONOMICS
and finally the subject i did best in GP!i managed to bring back proudly a c5!heh heh,didnt know how i managed to get it,but anyway like to thank all those who help me in one or another,gonna miss mr.chio and if there are any,retainees from my class,hope no.on a brighter note,the class' organising genting highlands trip!or was it cancelled,i tink so due to the lower participation rate.but never mind,i get to go to beijing for basketball exchange programme! * smirks* gotta train hard now. (:
emoemoemokid infect me ; 4:13 AM
Sunday, October 16, 2005
ahhhhh,its been raining the whole day,and sumones fallen ill.SEXY VOICE hurhs,got bad sore throat.took my way down to give her a surprise,yeaps.but in e end,it turned out bad.ahhh.another selfish act by me?hmmm,i tink i needa reflect again!! AHHHHH. let me discover my flaws one by one,and soon yu wil realise i aint that great after all ):
emoemoemokid infect me ; 7:51 AM
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
i am trying to make out time for my script,hope can finish on time,and in e meanwhile i am reli into the mood of writing a musical for the class! AH ! i am so excited,hmm,but wait.i need inspirations,anyone with funky ideas can approach me,YU ARE WELCOMED! (:
emoemoemokid infect me ; 8:14 AM
Thursday, October 06, 2005
Summer-love End of summer,end of love, so long it seems. I thought time will help me out, but no it seems, i cant forget. and every now and then i think of you, i wish that yu werent just SOME memory. CHORUS and one chance is all that i need, maybe you will take a look at me. I duno how i should feel, sometimes i just feel like letting go. Summer found his way out, it left me alone, with winter-breeze.
Take that love out from me now, summer ends. Winter takes over now, im alone, all alone, but every now and then i think of you,i wish that yu w'dnt just fade away. Will this feeling die out now, love and fate will you pls tell me now. can yu end my misery now, yu know yu are the onli one that i need summer found his way out, it left me alone, with winter-breeze. END-
