Wednesday, August 31, 2005

im feeling shitty now,i just duno why.pessimism is indeed infectious,duno when i became so low,i duno why.i cannot remmeber how when i felt like this,i know i am not being myself,which i tot i was.once i was confident of everytiing,now i realised i have overlooked a lot of tings,sumting feelings will die off,creativity will run off,and passion too,but i guess for now,i gonna stop all this from depleting.passion -i want this back at least (:

emoemoemokid
infect me ; 10:43 PM

Friday, August 26, 2005

heeyo!just came across melissa's blog and found my name flooding in there,a class musical at the end of the year seems veh promising,i promise i will be a good scriptwriteer and director,i wanna WRITE SCRIPTS,i got e best cast,a DANCER-SABRINA,my SOLO guitarist-SHUIYONG who keeps serenading girls,RAGEN that idiot who sleeps thrughout every lesson,our most daring speaker of the century who PROTESTS the GOVERNMENT AGGRESSIVELY-JUNRONG,our shortie in class,HOE SENG,my all-star-actor-indian muthu-JONATHAN PHANG,our DA-ROU-BAO mascot-JIAYI,our MELISSA who has extraordinary netball skills ( NOT SOCCER ) WHEE! (: our SAKI-HAIR- ZHI KAI (: args,cannot tink of other interesting characters,argss,my creativity is running out.WOOTS! but nvm i wil tink of a script at the end of the year if yu all persist on exploiting my talent.AHHAAAA (:

emoemoemokid
infect me ; 11:06 AM

yups,first training after so long,thursday is sure a great day,started off the day by clearing 10 rounds of make-up p.e, i dare to say that it was quite fun,i kinda like running yar,then proceeded onto some soccer games with classmates and some lame idiots like bob who is from the same countryside as me,not bad at all,4TH trick ( 4goals it means ) arghh,den went on for basketball training,guess i enjoyed training wfout mr.lim der,feel less pressurized,bleahs ): the team is quite bonded on e outside,but inside i duno as much,sum ppl just hate sum ppl,and not all of us are willingly to continue putting up a fight though we might be lagging before,i know tings willnt be e same again like in catholic high,where all pushes them to their best,even if we know we are on e losing end,we defend all e way,but once again,why didnt we qualify for the finals,how ironic.yups,when yu dun feel like being the one to take e blame,yu give the ball to others,the ball seems like a bomb to u,yu just wanna release it fast and pass onto the others,the better " others ",even if they dun score,there willnt be any emphasize placed,they will not get blamed,and dats wad the team is lacking of,not all of the teammates are improving together,only some beta ones are climbling higher and higher,for those who carn catch up,we beta move faster (:

emoemoemokid
infect me ; 10:38 AM

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

its a tiring monday,gotta study group,den sumthing relli entertaining happened,joseph and jiexin the COUPLE! AHAH. so damn funny la,the shy or brave joseph i must say " i tink she reli quite hot lehs " carn belive that he actualli told jiexin that. -clap clap- heh heh,den went on sending my yong yuan home,yups foolish her,being glumy over work and stuff! (: i guess i wil never feel that way,i am happy nowadays,and i am sure sumone knows what wonders she did to me (: - smirks smirks- heh heh.tonight has been boring with me,but i enjoy this special nite as we transmitted our messages thru feelings instead of lips, starting to miss u ! whee

emoemoemokid
infect me ; 8:43 AM

Saturday, August 20, 2005

hmm,yesterday has been a long time since i touched basketball..hmm.abt few weeks alredy..den the idiots zues,deng,cowli,me and yinhai went down to sum ulu basketball court to play wf some pros.and dere i teamed up wf nico and zues,which i am freakingly lousy,and thanks to nico,i know i am damn lousy,alright,i wil just pass e ball all to them,anyway its quite true,that we should just pass to ppl who have e highest possibility of scoring that basket..hmm.reli reli learnt a lot,if yu are lousy,yu just do the dirty job,when yu miss one shot,yu wil be blamed,but when yu are good,even if yu miss 2 or more shots,noone wil blame u,instead they allow yu to kip trying,if for a beginning or a rookie,forget it.ur presence is just unwanted.hmm.reli learnt a lot of tings,if i wanna play without restrictions,its so difficult sumtimes,reli feel like giving up and not playing in e same team as ppl who are much pro-er than me,however i tink dats a cowardly manner of looking at problems rite,hmm,shd strive harder and become stronger,so everyone wil start noticing my significance,i am just too lousy now,but never mind,i wil pick up soon,and i reli hope my teammates can motivate me,instead of bringing me down.i will be seeing u peeps next year,i promise.

emoemoemokid
infect me ; 10:05 PM

Friday, August 19, 2005

sumone today gave me a surprise,and happy i was.floating in school the whole day.wheeee! (: just love yong yuan to bits!i just realised i didnt do my part well,so after school,i made myself sit down,on e chair.processing an idea to return her surprises! (: *TA DA* i thought of an innovative idea.heh heh.so andie got down to business,and within one hour of HARDWORK ( sincerity is not a measure of time ) he let out a superior grin,and became even happier! whee,and as it turned out that night was another unforgetful experience for him (: *winks winks* i am not a noob anymore!!! (:

emoemoemokid
infect me ; 7:17 PM

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

hmm,about six months have passed,and i have to admit that i am knowing my classmates a bit better.hmm,sumtimes i am quite amazed at how tings can evolve,watching how unfamiliar classmates becoming my close frens in e clique,knew really great ppl like hoseng,phang,kenneth,jiayi,ragen,shuiyong,junrong,blah blah blah!reli gotta say that shuiyong and phang are really ppl who can control their temper very well,haven seen them losing temper before! and i gotta admit that i kinda fall in love wf shuiyong,PERFECT MAN! (: relli veh helpful and nice to get along!junrong the ULTRA out-spoken person,even i am scared of his FORMIDABLE guts,the way how he does tings,sumtimes i reli hope i can be like him,STAND UP FOR YOURSELF,i guess i am just a coward within me.about phang,lots to say abt him.reli reli complicated guy,he seems sly,cunning on e outside,and crafty but inside him,i reli gotta admit hes a very optimistic person who reli reli reli resembles me,he knows whats happening around him all e time,but he tries to act blur sumtimes to let ppl around him feel more comfortable! (: always amusing the class with his funny indian-accent and his weird but appropriately-funny comments!fun-loving guy who knows his limits and reli reli tinks for his friends! RAGEN now,that big idiot,argss,duno la, ragen is a reli big idiot who always pangsehs me all e time,yeap,and he hates me,always not telling me tings,i duno wat happened,and i am sure i miss that old ragen,where each and every day,we are always crapping,jiayi another idiot,i guess hes pissed wf me,for STEPPING on chairs,and spreading of rumours,i am reli reli sinful." i made my mistakes " hooseng tall giant,who has always the loudest voice during bridge,though he might make veh mean remarks while bridging, we all kknow by now hes always joking.and moreover he never fails to help u when yu are falling,though he might be unable to control his temper sumtimes,we all know hes harmless (: i reli reli miss this class as i spent more and more time wf u guys,though ragen u kept pangsehing me,asking me to get lost,i stil love u,jiayi though u are angry wf me for always stealing ur ipod,yu never scolded me,i appreciate u!shuiyong,junrong,hoeseng,phang and kenneth ( the one who always plays HP ) haha, thanks for being part and parcel of my life (:

emoemoemokid
infect me ; 8:06 AM

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

6days have passed,and i just realised how different my life has became,the day i took a larger step into ur life,breathed the air in ur world,its totally different feeling.maybe i have to admit that i prefer oxygen over in ur world-its ever so fresh.i tink i am worsening by day,becoming more possessive,and have given u too much pressure,and i know yu have been taking it silently.im really sorry,maybe i am too rash in handling such tings.yu will breathe just fine from this moment-and again,i m marvelled at the wonders yu smile can do

its just a simple smile;but it told a thousand tales

emoemoemokid
infect me ; 7:52 AM

Monday, August 15, 2005

idiots,thanks for spreading racial harmony on my blog,anyway i so hope it wil be true la,i dun mind having a hot malay girlfren! *dream* - wheeeeeee

emoemoemokid
infect me ; 7:41 AM

Friday, August 12, 2005

i have just seen u in e day,but i am starting to miss u,i couldnt concentrate.i duno why,maybe its just too heavy a burden for me to take

maybe u can let me peep at u again

emoemoemokid
infect me ; 7:03 AM

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

todays a special day but i am so not gonna tell u guys why.
just to conclude,i almost flew (:

WHEE-ing off

emoemoemokid
infect me ; 9:20 AM

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

while stocks last,i tink its not appropriate to compare someone with a good,but sumtimes i tink if yu dun catch hold of ur love,they wil slip by too,dun yu just agreee with me.everyone tinks that theres shd be quite a moment before the stocks wil run out,so they dun shop for them fast,in love,some guys always tink that his so-called-and-recognised-partner wil wait for him,he thinks that the girl will be waiting with him,and here i am to tell yu all,they dun wait with u,they wait FOR u,and dat makes the girl so irritated,if yu dun intend the relationship,let go,and allow the girl to be over u,and explore all undiscovered paradise,once again,yu are being the selfish one if yu keep her waiting,nuting waits for u forever.most ppl have to move on,they dun and they carn stay with u without knowing the certainty of u and her being together.they dun wan uncertain answers in their lifes,they want sumting realistic and workable,or at least effort to try.if yu like her,and dun intend the relationship with her,just because yu are afraid that yu wil hurt her during this course,and yu tink by not starting a relationship,yu arent hurting her?yu keep giving her impressions that ting wil work out and der WOULD be sum OUTCOME,but insistent waiting wil keep one disappointed,ppl wil get tired one day eventually.if it doesnt work out at the end of the day,lets say yu tried yu best (:

illusions to someone might be painful

emoemoemokid
infect me ; 9:52 PM

yeaps,yesterday night headed off to sum basketball games with my secondary school friends,kinda miss them now.gaoli deng zues sam yinhai.haha.the same bunch of ppl again.haha.looks like everyones changing,now zues becoming stronger and stronger,while deng become weaker and weaker.HAHAHAHA (: i am backstabbing deng!wheeeee!

when yu take it in ur hands,yu feel extraordinary,
maybe thats ur forte,sumthing yu can do well in,
at least better than others,sumting ya feel yu can conquer,
and dats why yu chose it,basketball.

its time to get it done for once,do yu wanna continue playing or just slack around,dun ever say yu duno anymore,life is full of uncertainties alredy,at least the least yu can do is assure some uncertainity to be certainty.take control of whats within your reach at least (:

my favourite slogan i created-

Immunity to limitations is the only rule of this game

emoemoemokid
infect me ; 9:25 PM

Untitled-

I open my eyes

I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light

I cant remember how

I cant remember why

I'm lying here tonight

And I cant stand the pain

And I cant make it go away

No I cant stand the pain

How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes

I've got no where to run

The night goes on

As I'm fading away

I'm sick of this life

I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me

Everybody's screaming

I try to make a sound but no one hears me

I'm slipping off the edge

I'm hanging by a thread

I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered

And I can't explain what happened

And I can't erase the things that I've done

No I can't

How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes

I've got no where to run

The night goes on

As I'm fading away

I'm sick of this life

I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes

I've got no where to run

The night goes on

As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life

I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me

( never listen to this when yu are down )

emoemoemokid
infect me ; 12:21 AM

Monday, August 08, 2005

yup,had a really fun day today again,whats happen to my life,it just seems to be full of colours and stuff.each and everyday,i carn stop at any point of time to breathe cox everythings just getting me excited..we had national days celebration today,which meant PICNIC on e AJ SQUARE! sorry,it isnt veh excited,but the food was enjoyable,everyones efforts were aprreciated,and mr.chio suggested one little game,he seems veh veh veh enthu abt the game,bet he loves it,den mr.zhiyan,mr.hoeseng,mr.jiayi,mr.chio and me got our share. ( punishment ) args.whole " BUCKET " of salad ( exaggerated again ) anyways didnt finish it,and i wonder where it is now,rain came and sent everyone home,some gleefully dashed under e rain and headed for town,while the FANTASTIC FOUR ( kenneth,hoe,junrong,and me ) headed for mr.RAGEN's SO-CALLED-TURBINE-RUNNING-DILAPIDATED-SMALL-HOUSE!quite spacious la,and these idiots indulging in some xbox fun,how old alredy?haha..den we came to orchard wfout knowing where we were going,saw lots of ppl,jiamein,some aj peeps and eekent wf his hot-babe ( cannot blive stupid phang went to take the scandal picture ) HAHA (: den we came til wheelock where we wanted to sit down for some bridge games and i saw stoo-pid linnet,wf kaihui and ppl,hhaa.so coincidental yeaps.haha.no seats made us head for home again,spent some quality time at home playing bridge while we rushed out for movie again,and we are so PLEASED to say onli 9 ppl turned up? feel very demoralised cox everyones was excited to see a class,see mr.chio and our subsidized dinner!HAHA (: but nevereless,went subway for dinner wf ragen,shuiyong and jiayi where we suanned jiayi instantanteously wf ***** ! HAHA (:

emoemoemokid
infect me ; 12:00 PM

whee! its a tiring day coming back from pualu ubin ( did i spell pualu rightly ) never mind,today was great rite.im so sure that all my og mates wil agree.but only a pathetic no. of 9 members came,sorry to all the rest who didnt come,sorry to pang seh u all and went ahead wf the fun on our own! heh heh,it started off with me and diana being late,and i gave some stupid excuse i was toking wf my frens in e mrt station that i forgot abt meeting diana,and she kinda blive.STOO-PID! HAHA (: my fault la okae!haha,was hanky-pankying on e train til we saw ALEX! ( hanky panky is exaggerated ! HAHA (: alex so handsome now,got these dazzling eyes,*Drools* heeh heh.den met up wf hazel ,changtai, alan,yuhuan,edwin.headed for e bus and der we saw the EMBARRASING CINDIA! haha, cannot reveal why she was so embarrased on that day!HA .got ourself some real fun by cycling,and damn it,my clumsy big bag got scractched by the stupid wheel,ARGSS!!!-exasperated-AHAHA (: luv skating and cycling in e sun,where everything in our minds are just fun,just laughter occupied our schedules and kept us hyper the whole day,and stupid diana and cindia went home early,left the four guys chatting and gossiping on e train back home,realli miss our orientation one,where guys drool and pin-point at eyecandies,where memories were not burden (:

emoemoemokid
infect me ; 7:53 AM

Friday, August 05, 2005

ragen talks and talks about passion,and den melissa comments on ragens passion and compares wf her passion,and nows its third hand comparison-i shall comment on my passion for basketball.rest assured melissa,definitely yu are having more passion in netball than me now,argsss.i am so slack,ever since i sprained my wrist,fell sick,reli not motivated to play ball,especially when the team tinks i am damn slack now,args,i am just not motivated to do anything,hope i reli get well soon and get my wrist done,den maybe i wil pick up my momentum to go for trainings,and thanks for so much for 10 make-up p.e. and 5 outstanding cwo! andie sure gottaa be a busy man.HAIKS ): carn do anyting rite,today got caught for playing bridge in class,and they claimed that i am the asshole who shouted 4 HEARTS so loudly and thanks to phang,who gave a stupid blog entry saying that i am person full of love,calling for HEARTS.well,lame!haha,anyway i am excited to write an entry wf ragen on sunday,its our big day ! WHEE (:

emoemoemokid
infect me ; 10:51 AM

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

when was e last time yu sat down wf yu true fren for a chat,when was e last time yu took off yu mask,when was e last time yu dare to reveal urself as a whole,when was e last time ya ever took yu guard off everyone,when was e last time yu did sumting like these for the first time,i forgot when,and forgot when i last relied on my true fren,i find that i am losing him or her fast,finding no support at all,and dats why many people usually lose themselves,i reli wan to hang onto sumting,not to mention a drifting wood-log (:

emoemoemokid
infect me ; 8:14 AM

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

im in a shitty mood now,not feeling right abt everything.taking tings slowly,i am walking too slowly,so much to catch up with,and noones giving me a hand,i feel like giving up on e way ):

but on a brighter note,lets be happy and strong! * swings arms* time to sleep ! WHEE (:

emoemoemokid
infect me ; 8:59 AM

Monday, August 01, 2005

yup,she left again,one after another,i reli have nothing to say abt u alright,could ya just pick up e damn courage and keep her by ur side,and what ya scared of,i have been telling u for years and months,that she wil like u for who yu are,and so wads more that keeping u back.why do yu wan every girl that ya once fall for to walk quietly out of ur life each time,i mean isnt it painful to see her with another guy yu duno walking down e streets of orchard,or maybe time has long healed ur wound that yu forgot her alredy,i dun tink so,and i dun ever tink yu never stayed up late in e night,unable to fall aslp ,just becox yu were tinking of her,and nothing else but her.and so why didnt yu make e move,alright,i have heard enough of yu excuses,yar,yu may not be able to get her all those tings she might reli desire,yu might not protect her,yu might not give her the sense of security,and all those crap.its time yu have some confidence in urself and stop tinking that ya are one big loser whos strong on e outside and weak in e inside,if dats e way ting appear to be.yu always act like a winner in front of me,yu always show me ur humorous and jovial side,yu never told me yu were sad over girls and stuff,yu never shed a single tear in front of me,yu told me to go for everyting i wanted,and how abt u,yu have been contradicting urself all these years,yu told me yu became SO CONFIDENT,and i actually took u for real and whats that yu are showing me now,DISPLAYING how a coward yu are.yu are afraid that the relationship willnt last,and so yu dun wan to hurt her,yu dun wan to see her crying at the end of the day,yu forsee that yu all wil break one day,yu dun wan that to be happening so yu insisted that yu rather stay single and remain as her fren,and let sumone protect her.well,yu dun wan to be e bad guy,but do yu tink giving her away to some other guy isnt equivalent to hurting her.yu are e bad guy at e end of day,noone wil kknow e outcome of a relationship,so dun ya ever predict that yu aare so gonna break up wf her ONE GLOOMY DAY,and all those bullshit abt u being thoughful,she DOESNT need any of those,she needs u,but the way that yu hide yu feelings and keeping yuself away from sinking deeper with her in a relationship,is totally cowardice,yu totally dun blive in true love,love that wil last a lifetime.BU ZAI HU TIAN CHANG DI JIU , ZHI ZAI HU CHENG JING YONG YOU.maybe a relationship reli wilnt last,and dats why ya dun wan it to have a start,and thus no pain for her at the end.well,i hope ya seriously give it a thought,as ur close buddy,i reli hope that yu dun regret anymore. yu know yuself more than me (:

emoemoemokid
infect me ; 6:35 AM