`rub on these words " happy " continuously n wf sincerity,and onli den will ya feel the happiness infecting u
CRITERIA before using this manual -you gotta be childish and foolish -b4 rubbing these words,ya gotta first blive that ya will get happiness -while rubbing these words,ya gotta tink of ur happiness -lastly u must be full of hope
BAD PROCEDURES THAT WILL LEAD TO ERROR -not optimistic enough -insufficient hope and faith -not being courageous to blive
` it is a childish act but do u dare to try it =D
emoemoemokid infect me ; 5:29 AM
Friday, April 22, 2005
`it just feels like shit when u are not in place,when u are not good enuff,when yu are despisedd by ppl weaker than u..and when everything confirms u that are not good enuff.theres nowhere i can hide my pride..maybe it was meant to be..u gotta face e consequences of ur acts..you lost ur passion for it and u lose ur right to play it..but when i look back at my horrid past,i realised that i again haf wasteed one year,one year to play wf u all..but it's all gone so for wad kip indulging in the emptiness..i understand if i am not weak..but der wilnt be any chance for me to shine..i am just unnoticed..and when i started recalling all this years when i slogged in so hard for basketball..i again realised that i haven won any medal since sec2..i put my teammates into pain.and when i see them playing on e court while i sat OUTSIDE the court..it just FEELS like shit.unwanted shit." go fill e water " u are just a water boy..i aint much bonded to the team but i feel for the team..i cherish the trainings i went thru though i ponned most of it..but maybe just cox i carn find back the feeling of working hard for sumthing we want in common..once again,maybe and maybe i wilnt find an answer to all my "maybes""
i miss cat high bball` those peeps out der.i feel ur presence like years before
emoemoemokid infect me ; 4:44 AM
Friday, April 15, 2005
i am e snail.i am crawling slowly to my end-pt.i carn see it.its too far,but i kept crawling.i know i am too slow to catch up wf e rest.but i blive wf my determination,i wil get there soon.i blive.so i see.but wheres the confidence thats lagging in e snail or in me.i am trying to pick some up along e way to e endpt.hopefully i gathered enuff confidence and i gonna be a fresh man.a fresh guy wf unwavering DETERMINATION and CONFIDENCE.YAY!
but for now,i gotta crawl faster,i am lapped by e rest in homework..CAN U GUYS STOP MUGGING!lemme BREATHE !! - gasps-
*` sumone motivate me to study = (
emoemoemokid infect me ; 5:55 PM
Thursday, April 14, 2005
u want to have a relationship just cause ya feel that ya are like a loser that has not been thru any love experience , ya wanna try a relationship cause ya want to taste the feeling of a kiss , ya wanna give a thought to relationship just cause ya are desperate to be loved ..and especially when ya know ya carn commit,ya wanna fall in love, isnt that selfish.
` wake up then = )
emoemoemokid infect me ; 8:13 AM
Monday, April 11, 2005
are u feeling confused and troubled at this moment..how will u be able to explain to someone so clearly what life is abt when ya haf not experienced any of it..maybe u did..life is like a jigsaw puzzle..ur frens and ur family and HER completes ur life,ur jigsaw puzzle..finally TADA u get a complete jigsaw puzzle wf all those beautiful pictures glimmering before u..but when she leaves u,the jigsaw puzzle is shattered..u are down wf a puzzle that is not complete,wf a piece of jigsaw puzzle missing from e entire..though it might be a small piece,notice its effect..the picture no longer has e charm to captivate u..instead it becomes a worthless piece of unsuccessful workpiece..and soon when someone comes along to repair the puzzle by trying to enroll herself into ur life( slotting in her piece of puzzle piece into e empty gap) ,u noticed that no longer ya are willing to accept her that easily anymore..its e puzzle piece that can fit exactly into ur gap in life..but ironically u realised that even it does fit well,ya arent willingly to accept her anymore..and dats makes ppl PUZZLED..( it all comes from a puzzle game of life = )
emoemoemokid infect me ; 5:46 AM
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
its time i learnt to let go,let go of many many things.guess miss siau is rite,sumtimes when we get too comfortable in our comfort zone,we never ever tot of leaving it.well,it happens for me.i wanna stay in 1905.i din regret taking f-maths cox initially i tot it was just a HARDER or even HARDER version of a-maths.i neber dread maths,loved it actualli.but it turns out to my horror that physics is in one of f-maths component.KILL ME PLS.i HATE PHYSICS.after getting F9 all over the place,i am so surprised and baffled at the fact tt i act got a2 for physics during o level.SO LUCKY!haha=) i am leaving 1905.gonna miss so many ppl.my tok-cock mates.DING JIE and JEREMY and SHAFIQ and yu qin.my so-called-wife DIANA!haha.the froggy that croaks in class and influences wrong english-usage yet OBTAINED a SPECTACULAR b3 for olevels.haha.SERENE wf that cliched sentence everyday " u are so ugly "haha.and SHAFIQ's " WOW " !hahaa.a lot of ppl i wil miss.JOYCE wf the diaox face cox i piss her everytime.sarah's HOT red face which she is mistaken to be ANGRY.ahah.jieying,laura,,jinzhen.JINZHEN stop noodding ur head in principal office can .SO SUCK-up !hahaha.a lot of peeps certainly reminds of 1905.GUO JUn.the forever look shy boy.but he isnt shy.he GOT a GF.GoD!hahaha=) met some new frens rite.THE hot babes ( mei jie and jie xin ) if i were to play a game called " shi zi lu kou " i will eat mei jie den eat jie xin..HAHA=X i gonna miss e days i heard the SNEEZER sneeze and ppl chatting loudly around us.we just gotta to admit we MAKE too much noise.and thanks to all the peeps which din make my life lifeless.i learnt to let go.but in my hands,i grasp our memories tightly for those i neber let go.
